IRC-Galleria

various clips...


A macaroni x-mas alone and sleeping. Maybe alone on the internet...
someone to talk to would be nice, someone to like and love.
NO, it only becomes trouble even in a "healthy family"
Desperately trying to find my tears, but for some reason they've gone hiding and I haven't seen them in two years. I remember being alone on the streets during x-mas, fortunately I've got my computer. It's some kind of company and maybe someday I'll forget...
one second takes time, but it runs fast.
dreamt alot lately about what's wrong with me, the anxiety at night, the darkness without snow, the frost that should be lit and guiding my way home.
i need you! isn't it so that the silence should be shared?
I've started walking around in the streets again, they've changed alot since I was six, I'm not afraid anymore, but I'm still waiting and I'm still disappointed...
Well, Fuck it!
I'm going to get what's mine to have, my own fucking happiness!

"Like norwegian earth makes memories of longing, a second takes time...
Time for us, that I'd really like to have more of!
No winter, no christmas I think and hope...Thinking of you and if it's true that you really made an impression on my soul long before me met.
It feels like yesterday, trying to say too much, don't want to hurt myself with my own problems.
While my pen on the paper traps my unreflected thoughts, I have already the answers written in my head. I just don't dare writing them down...
Cause it hurts to admit your own mistakes and the time is still not here since I don't have the strenght to bear it.
"Spin the bottle" , yeah I got distracted.

Pressure's building up, I'm trapped and it prevents me from expressing myself and it makes me vulnerable. I'm curious but at the same time afraid of what the answers will be.
I'm going to take a look at the screen, pieces of text I've written, standing naked infront of the world and making myself open for anything, either good or bad.
Cause it's as close as I get to you...
The new day comes sneaking and surprises me with it's comfortable cold to my cheeks.Fresh and comfortable, as if I awake and listening to my soul screaming "HELLO"
Work brings memories of past that is no longer forgotten or denied.
my mailbox feels full...
A mixing table is life; you have more channels, balance and lots of buttons to adjust.
Just like "feedback" at a livegig, you need to put on the mute button.
The beeping sound that kills your ears and your heart.
You know, the people that make me smile are the ones smiling at me first, even though I almost always smile.
-yeah, I'm more honest than I'd like to be..."



thatis some random quotes from my diary during the last couple of months.
here's a quote from todays, it reads:
"Nowhere, turn around, I'm coming, I am myself but I'm not for sale so COME ON!
today, im invincible, not even you can harm me"

yeah, feeling a bit manic;)

im a psycho maniac:)

anyway. more later=)

More's coming through this week of me playing guitar live in front of camera. Totally unsensored.
Find the previous ones here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vokRTnZK_-c

and here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elCmdHdJmeE

note the bad quality:p
but also notice my singing!

Erkki

So, yeah, just came from norway and I had a blast!
Got a lot done and I've really found a way for me to express myself literally.
Now, it's really not like this, since this is like a diary, but it's like i choose from my favourite quotes of my diary and I edit the sentences and make them to a whole. A whole personal voice!
that's cool!
anyway. Im going to translate some of it in a few days on the web, so please check this blog out again sometime!
Lot's of love,
Erkki "Erik Still"

I think todays feeling can best be described by this song by

James Blunt: Cry
I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have been through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

source: www.jamesblunt.com

Well, So I'm finally here...Back online and almost set in Turku.
One of the first disappointments: "No SNOW!STFU!"
Otherwise seems like a great place...Pretty girls, and since it's really not that cold here, they don't really put that much clothes on either, which I like.
The days are quite long though at the school when getting up 4.45am
and getting back home around 5.30pm.
After that I'm quite dead so not really much time for social life...
Still kind of bored, and I guess a bit lonely too...miss a tv, someone to be around, just hang with.
simply a good old fashioned friend...Of course more too would be nice, but everything starts in the small, right?
Finally moving in to part 2 of the course and soon were done with the theory as well.
Then it's just hard work from there on out;)
anyway, Go Aker "Funyards"!=)
Ah, and if you reading this happen to be from Turku, and would like to get to know me, don't hesitate and leave me a msg.
Mä puhun kyllä vähän (huono)suomeakin jos englanti ei oo sun homma:D

-soberness;)
nah, just kidding...I'm sober, but not considering it an invention nor a thing as such...
was nice, went playing guitar somewhere with some people i knew and some people i don't know at all, most latter...
thought it would be strange going there sober, but it was really alright...
had one single beer at the place and that was it...
not 30 like usual on a saturday=)
well, exaggerating a bit i guess... ;)
anyway...conclusion of the day, quite alright...
im feeling ok and i've got a sneeking suspicion that I'll be spending the night elsewhere...hehe
so much for that.
-guitar"playah" out

Ok, i found this "on the net" somewhere and I wanted to post it here, cause it just shows how stupid people can be...

Can people really be this stupid?

1. Recently, when I went to McDonald's I saw on the menu that I could have an order of 6, 9 or 12 Chicken McNuggets. I asked for a half dozen nuggets. "We don't have half dozen nuggets," said the teenager at the counter. "You don't?" I replied. "We only have six, nine, or twelve," was the reply. "So I can't order a half dozen nuggets, but I can order six?" "That's right." So I shook my head and ordered six McNuggets.

2. I was checking out at the local Wal-Mart with just a few items and the lady behind me put her things on the belt close to mine. I picked up one of those "dividers" that they keep by the cash register and placed it between our things so they wouldn't get mixed. After the girl had scanned all of my items, she picked up the "divider", looking it all over for the bar code so she could scan it. Not finding the bar code she said to me, "Do you know how much this is?" I said to her "I've changed my mind, I don't think I'll buy that today." She said "OK," and I paid her for the things and left. She had no clue to what had just happened.

3. A lady at work was seen putting a credit card into her floppy drive and pulling it out very quickly. When I inquired as to what she was doing, she said she was shopping on the Internet and they kept asking for a credit card number, so she was using the ATM "thingy."

4. I recently saw a distraught young lady weeping beside her car. "Do you need some help?" I asked. She replied, "I knew I should have replaced the battery to this remote door unlocker. Now I can't get into my car. Do you think they (pointing to a distant convenience store) would have a battery to fit this?" "Hmmm, I dunno. Do you have an alarm, too?" I asked. "No, just this remote thingy," she answered, handing it and the car keys to me. As I took the key and manually unlocked the door, I replied, "Why don't you drive over there and check about the batteries. It's a long walk."

5. Several years ago, we had an Intern who was none too swift. One day she was typing and turned to a secretary and said, "I'm almost out of typing paper. What do I do?" "Just use copier machine paper," the secretary told her. With that, the intern took her last remaining blank piece of paper, put it on the photocopier and proceeded to make five "blank" copies.

6. I was in a car dealership a while ago, when a large motor home was towed into the garage. The front of the vehicle was in dire need of repair and the whole thing generally looked like an extra in "Twister." I asked the manager what had happened. He told me that the driver had set the "cruise control" and then went in the back to make a sandwich.

7. My neighbour works in the operations department in the central office of a large bank. Employees in the field call him when they have problems with their computers. One night he got a call from a woman in one of the branch banks who had this question: "I've got smoke coming from the back of my terminal. Do you guys have a fire downtown?"

8. Police in Radnor, PA, interrogated a suspect by placing a metal colander on his head and connecting it with wires to a photocopy machine. The message "He's lying" was placed in the copier, and police pressed the copy button each time they thought the suspect wasn't telling the truth. Believing the "lie detector" was working, the suspect confessed.

9. A mother calls 911 very worried asking the dispatcher if she needs to take her kid to the emergency room, the kid was eating ants. The dispatcher tells her to give the kid some Benadryl and should be fine, the mother says, I just gave him some ant killer..... Dispatcher: Rush him in to emergency.


what you guys think?