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The first second that I saw you,
I knew then what I want now
Looked like an angel from heaven
You crashed down into my mind

In my eyes you are wonderful
you are an angel or my fountain of youth
don't even know you, but i know it's true
my christmas present?
do you want me too?

Never wanted something like this
I can see you all the time
In my head you are the better
the joy and lust it all collides

In my eyes you are wonderful
you are an angel, my fountain of youth
don't even know you but i know it's true
my christmas present, do you want me too?

You are different, from everything I've ever liked
You are different, and its all that i'd like
to have with me on the road...

Well, time to rise and shine and make my way to the shipyard.
weee, im sleepy...
but coffee's on the way!=)
oh, the songs coming...
just hold on;)

yeah, new song again...
just don't have the time writing it down now, so I'll do it tomorrow...
tata

Lot's of love,
Erkki

How about it?

I'm all open to get hurt...by you
I'm all open to your fears and crying all night through
I'm open to your dreams(x)

It should be all obvious
that I do care for you
I think I understand
And sharing now with you

to share our secret lives
we both have deep inside
i want to go explore
the inner you and more

Cause I'm all open to get hurt...by you
and I am open to your fears and crying all night through
I am open to your dreams, I often even feel,
I'm even in your dreams

in a forgotten world
that i once left behind
i find a memory
a love that once was blind


and now i see your face
wherever i may go
you are the mystery
i wanna get to know


Cause I'm all open to get hurt
By you(yeah you)
I am open to your fears and crying all night through
I am open to your drems, I rarely even feel,
that you're one in my dream
i want you in my dream

Cause I want to be there
in your highs and lows
I want to see it, as our
emotions grow


hey, let me know what you think?

various clips...


A macaroni x-mas alone and sleeping. Maybe alone on the internet...
someone to talk to would be nice, someone to like and love.
NO, it only becomes trouble even in a "healthy family"
Desperately trying to find my tears, but for some reason they've gone hiding and I haven't seen them in two years. I remember being alone on the streets during x-mas, fortunately I've got my computer. It's some kind of company and maybe someday I'll forget...
one second takes time, but it runs fast.
dreamt alot lately about what's wrong with me, the anxiety at night, the darkness without snow, the frost that should be lit and guiding my way home.
i need you! isn't it so that the silence should be shared?
I've started walking around in the streets again, they've changed alot since I was six, I'm not afraid anymore, but I'm still waiting and I'm still disappointed...
Well, Fuck it!
I'm going to get what's mine to have, my own fucking happiness!

"Like norwegian earth makes memories of longing, a second takes time...
Time for us, that I'd really like to have more of!
No winter, no christmas I think and hope...Thinking of you and if it's true that you really made an impression on my soul long before me met.
It feels like yesterday, trying to say too much, don't want to hurt myself with my own problems.
While my pen on the paper traps my unreflected thoughts, I have already the answers written in my head. I just don't dare writing them down...
Cause it hurts to admit your own mistakes and the time is still not here since I don't have the strenght to bear it.
"Spin the bottle" , yeah I got distracted.

Pressure's building up, I'm trapped and it prevents me from expressing myself and it makes me vulnerable. I'm curious but at the same time afraid of what the answers will be.
I'm going to take a look at the screen, pieces of text I've written, standing naked infront of the world and making myself open for anything, either good or bad.
Cause it's as close as I get to you...
The new day comes sneaking and surprises me with it's comfortable cold to my cheeks.Fresh and comfortable, as if I awake and listening to my soul screaming "HELLO"
Work brings memories of past that is no longer forgotten or denied.
my mailbox feels full...
A mixing table is life; you have more channels, balance and lots of buttons to adjust.
Just like "feedback" at a livegig, you need to put on the mute button.
The beeping sound that kills your ears and your heart.
You know, the people that make me smile are the ones smiling at me first, even though I almost always smile.
-yeah, I'm more honest than I'd like to be..."



thatis some random quotes from my diary during the last couple of months.
here's a quote from todays, it reads:
"Nowhere, turn around, I'm coming, I am myself but I'm not for sale so COME ON!
today, im invincible, not even you can harm me"

yeah, feeling a bit manic;)

im a psycho maniac:)

anyway. more later=)

More's coming through this week of me playing guitar live in front of camera. Totally unsensored.
Find the previous ones here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vokRTnZK_-c

and here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elCmdHdJmeE

note the bad quality:p
but also notice my singing!

Erkki

So, yeah, just came from norway and I had a blast!
Got a lot done and I've really found a way for me to express myself literally.
Now, it's really not like this, since this is like a diary, but it's like i choose from my favourite quotes of my diary and I edit the sentences and make them to a whole. A whole personal voice!
that's cool!
anyway. Im going to translate some of it in a few days on the web, so please check this blog out again sometime!
Lot's of love,
Erkki "Erik Still"

I think todays feeling can best be described by this song by

James Blunt: Cry
I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have been through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

source: www.jamesblunt.com

Well, So I'm finally here...Back online and almost set in Turku.
One of the first disappointments: "No SNOW!STFU!"
Otherwise seems like a great place...Pretty girls, and since it's really not that cold here, they don't really put that much clothes on either, which I like.
The days are quite long though at the school when getting up 4.45am
and getting back home around 5.30pm.
After that I'm quite dead so not really much time for social life...
Still kind of bored, and I guess a bit lonely too...miss a tv, someone to be around, just hang with.
simply a good old fashioned friend...Of course more too would be nice, but everything starts in the small, right?
Finally moving in to part 2 of the course and soon were done with the theory as well.
Then it's just hard work from there on out;)
anyway, Go Aker "Funyards"!=)
Ah, and if you reading this happen to be from Turku, and would like to get to know me, don't hesitate and leave me a msg.
Mä puhun kyllä vähän (huono)suomeakin jos englanti ei oo sun homma:D