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Seems life forever,
like forever
since i tore myself apart
and left my friends in the wake
of countless tears and fading life.
when i couldn't seem to grasp the life i lead
and the lives i touch
its one year on now
one year on, one year on
still i struggle with the same demons
i shed as i laid there lost in my head
lost in my head

(lost in this goddamn hospital bed)
i'm not the same man
and i don't dare try
(try to uncover all the darkness i hide)
its like my demons are my lovers
but i've got friends by my side
i've got hope in my eyes
and dreams to aspire too
and the whole wide world to watch below
(and death won't be my lover
i've got so much left to give
and take my life with subtle steps
instead of not wanting all that is left)

instead of trying to take my own life
its one year on
and i'm stronger, i want to live much longer
not grow old and bitter
and not jaded
and not hate what life gave me
let the fear wash away
let the demons blunt their claws
on a life that's full of mistakes
but always searching for much more
i won't die defeated
I won't die defeated
i won't die defeated
i won't die

cause i've got friends by my side
i've got hope in my eyes
and dreams to aspire too
and the whole wide world to watch below
(and death won't be my lover
i've got so much left to give
and take my life with subtle steps
instead of not wanting all that is left
no death won't be my lover
i've got so much left to give
and take my life with subtle steps
instead of not wanting all that is left)

Everything I ever had I myself threw away, all was mine I only had to hold on to them. I cant repeat this anymore...I might just as well give up. One last big party, go out with style....

Look into my eyes, have you ever seen true evil?
Well you havent now let me show you a whole new world, hidden from the eyes of the curious. My life is pain!!!

I will spin you around till you throw up the rest of your morbid lies.
I will beat you till the thruth bleeds out from your every artery.
Ducktaped and tied not even GOD? can hear your cries.

Is this more than you can reason in your twisted little mind?
"How can you do this to me? you use to be so kind"
Well easy, just looked inside and salvaged anything that there was left.
Now it makes me sick, the memories of kissing your lips and touching your filthy body.

I will spin you around till you throw up the rest of your morbid lies
I will beat you till the thruth bleeds out from your every artery.
Ducktaped and tied not even GOD? can hear your cries.

MY life is Pain!!!
I´ll show you this world you helped me create
in here I am god and you´ll never leave...you´ll never leave...YOU WILL NEVER FUCKING LEAVE ME AGAIN... MY NEW TOY I WILL PLAY WITH YOU TILL THE END OF TIME!!!!

We live like there´s no tomorrow, only to wake up full of regret.
BUT STILL WE DONT GIVE A FUCK

I learned to ignore all the shit in this world "Fucking whores", letting go was the hardest lesson.

Different bed every night, different arms to hold me tight.
This has become a rule not an exception.

This is the life in the scene where everything is meaningless, more drinks, more sex, more everything just to pass the time.

I lost many memories this would be a problem if I cared.

This is life in the scene where everything is free....Free sex, free drinks, free everything....

Her face fills my world
Haunted by another girl
So I'm going to drink until I can't see straight
Overrun and consumed by hate
Let it's fire flood my veins
This night will never be the same
Photographs they all burn
One more lesson learned
Let all of this wash away the pain I will never let you into my heart again
Never
So
I will keep on drinking (keep drinking)
Until I can drink no more (keep drinking)
Can I just please stop thinking (no thinking)
So I will keep on drinking (keep drinking)
It's time to erase the name of that whore I want to wake up face down on the floor.

In this house, where the walls speak louder than I can scream. I can still feel the warmth of your touch and where ever I look I see you smiling and with that soft sound in your voice you tell me stories that fill me with this feeling that I cant even put to words. I can hear laughter in every room, markings of our love in the window stills.
Photographs of you and that smile still screams me to stay....If only I could stay here I would be complete but I know that I must continue and when I open the door the wind blows to my face and your voice whispers "we will always have these memories, youll be fine..."