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mmmkay i admit it's already been over a week. but this is the last english journal for now. tomorrow (today) i'm going back to the finnish mode again... sigh.

but i'm fine with it, i still got the deviantart journal ^^ i just don't dare to fill it with crap like this one, people would be scared xD

oh yeah, i'm home again. the joy<3 although my time is pretty much going to the Jakotsu outfit (oh well, and watching anime), but i'm not complaining. even though the clothes are not coming together exactly like i would hope for (i keep begging some Jakotsu fan isn't gonna scratch my eyes out when i appear to the place in my cheap rags), i can make it up by acting like a nutcase. i bet no one's gonna notice anything xD

although i almost lost my hope when mom, really helpfully but with no idea what exactly should have been done, came up with her visions and told me how to pull a yukata together...

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*me with a large pink piece of fabric dragging around me, mom with some needles*

me: mom, i feel like a cotton candy.

mom: you look like one too, honey.

me: niiiiiice.

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but once it's all ready, i'm gonna have some seriously good time ^^ i'm gonna have pictures taken of it. mwahhahhaa!!!

...now that sounded like the most perverted thing i've said for a while. for making it clear, i'm still talking about Ropecon, not some creepy sex session ^^

mmh. i guess i would still have lotsa things to say but the heck with it. more anime!

so, i finished the hand thingy, it's pretty sexyy~ ^^ of course it's supposed to be purple snake skin (Ja=Snake, Kotsu=Bone) but it's not that easy to find with my amount of money so it's just plain purple. still pretty.

i actually did get bit scared after the movie, since the apartment is bigger and darker than mine and all kinda creepy noises keep echoing around, but i just thought "Butterfly Ears is doing perfectly normal, and since dogs sense evil things, there must be nothing around..." then i went outside with her and after i got back, it wasn't scary anymore.

now i'm again getting bit light-headed and dizzy, so it's time to wander to Undying Devotion site and spend some quality time there before falling to bed. green tea calls! ^^

so, since i skillfully managed to error mom's sewing machine last night the minute i touched it (i certainly DO have a skill with machines), i wasn't able to get the yukata together. but fear not, mom's coming back tomorrow and she may be able to fix the thing...

but i haven't been just lying around, i sewed the hand-thingy by hands... it's almost ready, just needs another piece of fabric to the wrist. i'm so proud of myself xD

something tells me i probably shouldn't do any sewing while watching the Sixth Sense tonite (mtv3, i think) if i don't wanna end up with fingers full of bloody marks by the needle...

damn, i've been listening to nrj the whole day and those guys really do have some kinda problem. way too much nelly furtado (i'm getting tired of that bitch and her crappy songs) and not nearly enough of The Kill (haven't heard it from the radio in a week). at least they play Thnks Fr Th Mmrs few times a day...

*looks at the keyboard* it seems that some experts believe that the use of any keyboard may cause serious injury... interesting xD

i'm pretty sure this house has some kinda spirit in it (even thoug it seems quite new), i keep hearing unrelated noises and the items keep acting bit out of ordinary... nothing serious though, i just hope it's not gonna scare the fishsticks outta me during the movie.

but now i think i should go to sauna... i'm not able to do that at home and it feels good for change. au revoir.

tee hee, i suppose i should go to sleep. without a doubt Butterfly Ears is planning to attack my face at some goddessless hour so i'd better catch some sleep before it.

...she's so beautiful. she sleeps on the floor next to me at the moment. so much prettiness in such a small thing...

i guess i've missed her more than i realized myself. after all, despite the fact that she's a dog, she means to me more than almost anything or anyone... we have some kind of spiritual connection, that's the way it's been since she was the size of a coffee mug.

i'm getting too emotional again, it's because it's so late... and when i think about Butterfly Ears being beautiful, i cannot help thinking about Jakotsu being beautiful as well. that is, the manga Jakotsu. in the anime he's been made somewhat of a clown (cute or pretty but not beautiful), but in the manga he is simply beautiful. especially in his last moments, those pictures leave me breathless no matter how many times i see them.

but even my pure obsession, admire and, well, love for Jakotsu can never be compared to the way i feel about the little dog lying there with her big ears.

enough of that, i doubt anyone reads this anyway. i'm only talking to myself after all... i just saw the full video of 30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill from youtube. i've seen the Voice version about twenty or so times but it's kinda shorter and sencored.

anyway, i love the song (and mr. Leto is hot) but in this house i've been only for a while, the video makes me look behind my back every once in a while. if you've seen it you know what i mean...

but i'll go to bed now i'm still able to...

so far it's been really nice here... mom left to the woods (ie the cottage) today and i'm alone with Butterfly Ears... it's wonderful to be with the little creature, i haven't seen her for so long time and she looks more beautiful every time i look at her.

i found myself a nice large cup to drink tea from (i've become a teaholic) and since mom visited the city at morning, i now have my yukata fabric. i've got good books to read and i managed to find nrj station from the radio. right now i'm hearin' 30 seconds to mars's from yesterday, goody~.

only couple of thing bother me; first, the tv only shows channel 2, mtv3 and nelonen (well eurosport too but i won't count it) so i'm not able to watch simpsons. second, even though i found a headphone to the computer, the machine won't show me any anime from net. it was the same with my sister's computer, so apparently i'm only allowed to watch anime at home (maybe it's better that way). and third, the walls around here aren't that thick and people walk outside all the time so i can't sing aloud, although Butterfly Ears is probably happy about that.

even so, these aren't big deals and generally i'm enjoying my time, though i feel much more cousy at home. but the big sofa's here, Butterfly Ears is here and the big soft bed is here so nothing really to complain.

now i'll head to the sewing machine and get the light pink yukata on its way... cheers.

"On a mountain he sits, not a gold but of sin."

heyy, i'm here at mom's place now! the computer's pretty sucky compared to my laptop lover, but it gets me to net and stuff.

we visited the city before but all the fabric stores were closed already so i didn't get my yukata fabric yet *horror*. but we'll get it tomorrow if mom dares to enter the city (it's the neste rally thingy this weekend here) or at least by monday... that would mean i'm in a bit of hurry cause i'll come back home tuesday... it's not like i wouldn't be able to do the whole thing myself (my imagination knows no bounds when it comes to stuff like this) but i don't own a sewing machine so i would have to do it by hands. not impossible, but slow.

so, what else? a half-anniversary... but i feel pretty much nothing when it comes to that. or annoyance at best.

oh yeah, we dyed my hair just now. it's supposed to be mahogany but with my hair, i won't promise anything.

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Jakotsu: Two of us have passed away already... From seven, that leaves us with only four.

Renkotsu: *annoyed* Seven minus two is FIVE.

Jakotsu: Huh?! Wait... *counts with his fingers*

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yeahiknowobsessed. but sheesh, i can't help laughing at that scene... okay i'll just go now before i get too carried away with this subject...

had so much fun with my honeys, Cheeta and Lestat... thanks again babes<3 we watched a lot of vhs-movies and talked about important things, such as the anatomy of a condom wrapper. i also managed to do some black magic with a black wig in order to make it a Jakotsu-wig. i say it again, his hair is humanly impossible to exist. but i'll do my best...

then after they left i cruised around in a... well, i have no clue what it would be in english... kirpputori. i found black and bright red nail polish, only two euros a bottle. yay! i also got a paperback copy of Artemis Fowl: The Opal Deception (in finnish tho') for a ridiculous price of one euro.

then i bought a positively horrible purple gollege shirt for two euros. the woman who sold it to me gave me a little suspicious look, but i hope she doesn't think i'm actually gonna wear such a terrible piece of crap. no, it's purely material for my Jakotsu outfit... more specifically for the hand thingy (i don't even know how to call it in finnish) if something's left after that, we'll see... i'm gonna wash the shirt before cutting it to pieces. it smells horrible, like all the clothes bought from such places, and how can i know what kinda pervert owned it before me?

i guess my Jakotsu obsession is getting a bit oveload; more specifically, i'm losing my soul to him. sooner or later i'm even gonna get Cheeta and Lestat beg for me to shut up about him... o_O i apologize in advance, sweethearts. i just cannot help myself, it makes me so happy to obsess over him ^^ i have the power to make my obsessions grow into something really serious, that's the way it's always been.

i could always blame Ropecon for it getting more serious lately, cuz if i'm gonna dress as Jakotsu, i obviously need to know every little thing about him, right? but i wouldn't be so sure it's gonna slow down even after the weekend. truly, the school is gonna start soon so i won't be having the lazy days used only to lie on couch and look at anime, but whaddaya think i'm gonna do when it's finally time to relax? haa haa.

the point is, even if no one cares, that i just feel so much better when i have something to think about, someone to admire and something to bring beauty into my life (he _is_ beautiful, and the story). i haven't been angsty at all since who knows how long. yes, it might also be because of the summer. but this is getting way off the line, so i rest my case.

oh yeah, i'm gonna go to mom's place tomorrow for the weekend. there's a computer and stuff but i'm mostly gonna make my yukata so i won't be hanging around here all the time. peace out.

(Inuyasha is being impolite... Jakotsu ain't a freak, he's just a misunderstood weirdo ^^ no, i don't have obsessions. you're imagining it.)

*cough* so in the end i went to sleep at five am... at that point my head was starting to hurt a bit, but hey, i had a great night! i guess i could tell you what i was doing the whole time but you would start that nonsense babbling about obsessions again... shame on you.

i also don't have obsession over the word "obsession".

haa haa. but hey, in mere... hour and a half i'm gonna see my dear Jakotsu-faces ^^ we're gonna have fun, lessee if they can stay awake for a bit longer this time :D i don't really have problem with staying up all night if there's something to do... there's plenty of time to sleep when school begans again *rebel laugh*

i remember another interesting conversation we had, it was back when we were watching... what's the english name? Queen of the Damned, i think. good one. anyways, the sexy vampire Lestat was on the screen and we found ourselves strongly agreeing about his looks.

K: Se on hot...

S: Se ON hot...

M: Se muuten ON hot!

x) yeah, it was in finnish. boo hoo.

there's one obsession i'm willing to admit to great audience: the way i start to drool every time i see a good-looking guy with long dark hair... it's a bit scary, i guess, the hair thing... i kinda melted on the floor the first time i saw from yesterday-video by 30 seconds to mars, with Jared Leto and his dark hair... mmmm *drool*

also the dark-haired guy in HP and Oo/tP movie... the one who only had one line xD and the young Snape... Loony was perfect in the movie, by the way.

this isn't making any sense anymore. i'll just go now.

obsessions!

yay, my internet works! i feel so joyful and sadistic i'm gonna do another week of english only-mode in here! there's lots of things to be joyful for now, like the fact i'm gonna meet Gang Jakotsu-faces again tomorrow, my internet works, i'm gonna see miss Butterfly Ears this weekend, my internet works, next weekend i'm gonna dress as Jakotsu for Ropecon, my internet works, and i found inuyasha vol. 28 from library this morning and drooled over it all the way home.<3

life's good at times like this! i spend 85 fucking euros for a stupid black box that doesn't cooperate with me and i'm still so happy i keep smiling even though i'm all alone and it's the middle of night.

i guess i'm just plain fool. but a happy fool, and that's what matters. ^^

heh. joo häivyn kotiin taas, nettiin pääsen seuraavan kerran tarkemmin määrittelemättönänä ajankohtana, kun nettiyhteys alkaa himassa toimia. tai sitten kun menen käymään äidin luona. toivon ensimmäisen tapahtuvan pikemmin.

siihen saakka kuitenkin, peace out ja muuta scheissee.