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As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for
Understand that there's some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

1. Mitä teit vuonna 2007 sellaista, jota et ole tehnyt aiemmin?
Pääsin ylioppilaaks!

2. Piditkö uudenvuodenlupauksesi?
Tavallaan

3. Synnyttikö kukaan läheisesi?
Ei

4. Kuoliko kukaan läheisesi?
Joo

5. Missä maissa kävit?
Suomi

6. Mitä haluaisit vuodelta 2008 sellaista, joka ei onnistunut vuonna 2007?
Hmmh,tiputtaa viel 10 kiloa :P

7. Mikä päivämäärä säilyy muistissasi vuodelta 2007?
Lakkiaispäivä :)

8. Vuoden suurin saavutuksesi?
Ylioopilaaks pääsy ja vuorovastaavaks ylennys

9. ...ja suurin epäonnistuminen?
emt

10. Kärsitkö vammoista?
En

11. Mikä oli paras asia, jonka ostit?
Liput Berliiniin! :P

12. Kenen käyttäytyminen ansaitsi kiitosta?
Ystävien

13. Kenen käyttäytyminen aiheutti ahdistusta?
hmmh...

14. Mihin käytit suurimman osan rahoistasi?
Omaan kivaan ;)

15. Mistä innostuit eniten?
Safista ja tulevasta pennusta :)

16. Mikä albumi / kappale tulee muistuttamaan sinua vuodesta 2007?
Unbreakable <3 BERLIINIII!!!!

17. Verrattuna tähän aikaan viime vuonna, oletko onnellisempi vai surullisempi?
Onnellisempi

18. Lihavampi vai laihempi?
Lihavampi,mut kilot tippuu :PP

19. Rikkaampi vai köyhempi?
Rikkaampi
20. Mitä olisit toivonut tekeväsi enemmän?
Pudottaa painoa,nähä ystäviä

21. ...entä vähemmän?
Töitä -D

22. Miten aiot viettää joulun?
Töissä XD

23. Jos voisit mennä ajassa taaksepäin ja muuttaa yhden hetken menneestä vuodesta, mikä se olisi?
Hmmh,tää on vaikee. Varmaan pyytäny anteeks eräältä ihmiseltä

24. Rakastuitko vuonna 2007?
En

25. Ihastuitko vuonna 2007?
Kyllä

26. Mikä oli mieluisin tv-sarja, jota seurasit?
Lost (mut kaikki to illat meni töissä :()

27. Vihaatko tällä hetkellä ketään, jota et vihannut viime vuonna samaan aikaan?
En

28. Mikä oli paras lukemasi kirja?
Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows

29. ...entä musiikillinen löytö?
Hmmh,Coldplay

30. Mitä halusit ja sait?
Berninpaimenkoiran ja kissan.

31. Mitä halusit, muttet saanut?
Oman kameran

32. Mikä oli vuoden suosikkielokuvasi?
Pirates of the Caribbean varmaan

33. Mitä teit syntymäpäivänäsi?
Olin töissä,mut seuraavana päivänä juhlittiiin!!!

34. Mikä yksi asia olisi tehnyt vuodestasi äärettömän paljon tyydyttävämmän?
EMt,moni asia
35. Miten kuvailisit vaatemuotiasi vuonna 2007?
Sama mikä aina ennenkin

36. Mikä tai kuka sai sinut pysymään järjissäsi?
Perhe,ystävät

37. Kenestä julkisuuden henkilöstä pidit eniten?
Nick Carter ;P Tiedän XD

38. Mikä poliittinen puheenaihe säväytti sinua eniten?
Sairaanhoitajien palkankorotus ja PAMn lakkoaikeet

39. Ketä kaipasit?
Ystäviä

40. Kuka oli paras uusi tuttavuus?
Työkamut :P

Moni ihminen on yrittäny muuttaa mua. Ja arvatkaa mitä,ne on onnistunusiinä... Oon aina tehny ja tykänny asioista, koska muut on niin "halunnut". Enkä oo sitä ees kunnolla tajunnut. Ja jos oon omaa mielipidettäni yrittäny puolustaa niin mut on haukuttu pystyyn tai jätetty huomiota.
Se on pelottavaa. Se on inhottavaa ja se saa mut surulliseksi. Joidenkin mielestä saatan olla itsekäs kun kirjotan näin. Mut mitä vitun väliä sillä on jos musta on kerta tuntunu näin jo pitkän aikaan. Mä en enään halua valehdella läheisilleni ja sanoa että kaikki on hyvin. Niin ei oo.
Asiat on kyllä just nyt tällä hetkellä paljon paremmin kun pitkään aikaan. Sain kouluhomman hoidettuu ja ainakin nyt tuntuu tosi hyvältä. En haluu maalata piruja seinille, mut mä juhlin liian aikasin. Marraskuun lopussa selvii vasta mun tulevaisuus...
Niin muuten, mä rupesin laihduttamaan. En haluu salata sitä keneltäkään,sillä tarviin kaiken mahdollisen tuen mikä on vaan mahdollista saada. Ja ei,ein tee tätä kenenkään muun ku itteni takia. Musta tuntuu inhottavalta ja haluun saada paremman mielen ja olon. Siinä kaikki. Kiitos ja näkemiin!
Ja olkaa kilttejä,yrittäkää ymmärtää että etin itteäni, sillä en haluu kulkee enään kenenkään talutusnuorassa. En enään ikinä!!

PS. Musiikki on aina merkannu mulle tosi paljon. Se on pelastanu mut monesti itsetuholta. Jotenkin tuntuu että tiettyihin kappaleisiin kiteytyy koko mun elämä ja kaikki mun tunteet. Sen takia mä kirjotankin tätä. Haluun olla avoimempi.

PPS. Tää biisi sai mut ajattelemaan ja se todella kosketti mua. Eikä oo eka biisi joka niin tekee kyseiseltä bändiltä...

Bacsktreet Boys - Close My Eyes

My feet on the ground
But I can't run
Drowning the noise inside my head
Who is this man that I've become
It's killing me to see myself
How do you learn how to forgive
When deep down inside you can't forget
With all that I regret
I pray for the first time in a long time
The lies fade away

Finally I'm waking up
I feel like I can let you go
Say everything I wanted to say
I'm okay with being alone

When I close my eyes
When I close my eyes

I'm alive
I never was sure
But now I am
This was the choice I had to make
Maybe I'll never understand
Sometimes you gotta make mistakes

Finally I'm waking up
I feel like I can let you go
Say everything I wanted to say
I'm okay with being alone
Finally I'm facing up
I feel like I can let it show
I know I can walk away
I'm okay with being alone

When I close my eyes
(close my eyes, close my eyes)
When I close my eyes
(close my eyes, close my eyes)
When I close my eyes

How do you know where to go
when you're going?
How do you know that
you know when it's over?

I see for the first time
In a long time
Believe me when I say

Finally I'm waking up
I feel like I can let you go
Say everything I wanted to say
I'm okay with being alone

Finally I'm facing up
I feel like I can let it show
I know I can walk away
I'm okay with being alone

When I close my eyes
(close my eyes, close my eyes)
When I close my eyes
(close my eyes, close my eyes)
When I close my eyes
I'm alive

I'm alive

Mä itkin ku katoin tätä...
Niin ihana kappale ja esittäjä <33
Eikä sanomakaan ole paha :)

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line


Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Backstreet Boys - Everything but mine


Walking along the sky
Chasing a glimpse of you
Painting a world with stars I found inside your eyes
Up here above the haze
Everything looks so clear
Wondering what it would be like if you were here

And time, it takes time (takes time)
But I canÂ’t wait
To tell you how I feel

Oh, youÂ’re the calm when my world is crashing
My heart, my blood, my passion
Why, tell me why
YouÂ’re everything but mine
I hold you close when it all goes crazy
And through it all, youÂ’d be my lady
Why, tell me why
YouÂ’re everything, everything but mine


You donÂ’t have to be afraid
Of somebody elseÂ’s touch
Just gimme a chance to prove
Just how you should be loved

And time, it takes time (takes time)
ItÂ’s not too late
To tell you how I feel

Oh, youÂ’re the calm when my world is crashing
My heart, my blood, my passion
Why, tell me why
YouÂ’re everything but mine
I hold you close when it all goes crazy
And through it all, youÂ’d be my lady
Why, tell me why
YouÂ’re everything, everything but mine

Everything thing but mine, ooh
Mine I know, oh baby
Someday youÂ’ll come around
IÂ’m gonna leave the light on
And I wonÂ’t let you down
No I wonÂ’t let you down

I wonÂ’t let you down
Oh, youÂ’re the calm when my world is crashing
My heart, my blood, my passion
Why, tell me why
YouÂ’re everything but mine
I hold you close when it all goes crazy
And through it all, youÂ’d be my lady
Why, tell me why
YouÂ’re everything, everything but mine

YouÂ’re everything but mine, yeah
YouÂ’re everything but mine, yeah, ooh
YouÂ’re the sun
YouÂ’re the star
YouÂ’re the moon
You're the rain
Love your lips, love your eyes
Drivin' me insane
Oh baby, baby
Oh you're everything but mine, yeah
You're everything but mine

Johnnylle ♥


The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I own to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone


Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close
Everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close
Everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

You don't run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby, that's why you captured my heart

I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there's no one I know that can compare

What makes you different, makes you beautiful
What's there inside you, shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

Hey, yeah yeah yeah
You got something so real
You touched me so deep
See material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you

What makes you different, makes you beautiful
What's there inside you, shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful

You don't know how you touched my life
Oh in so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
You saw the little things that make you beautiful to me
Oh yeah, yeah

What makes you,
What makes you different, makes you beautiful
What's there inside you, shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

Everything you do is beautiful
Love you give shines right through me
Everything you do is beautiful
Oh, you're beautiful to me

People can take everything away from you
But they can never take away your truth
But the question is..
Can you handle mine?

They say I'm crazy
I really don't care that's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn getting boys is how I live

Some ask me questions
Why am I so real?
But they don't understand me
I really don't know the deal about my sister
Trying hard to make it right
Not long ago before I won this fight

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own decisions (oh)
That's my prerogative
That's my prerogative

It's my prerogative
Its the way that I wanna live
It's my prerogative
You can't tell me what to do

Don't get me wrong
I'm really not souped!
Ego trips is not my thing
Fuck all these strange relationships
It really gets me down
See nothing wrong spread myself around

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own decisions (oh)
That's my prerogative
That's my prerogative

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own decisions (oh)
That's my prerogative
That's my prerogative

Its the way that I wanna live
It's my prerogative
But you can't tell me what to do

Why can't I live my life?
Without all of the things that people say
Ohhhhh

Oh

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own decisions (oh)
That's my prerogative

(They Say I'm crazy) Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
(they say I'm nasty)I don't need permission
Make my own decisions (oh)
That's my prerogative (ahhh)

It's my prerogative

This is something I can't hide
Can't throw it away
This is something I can't fake
They know you're away
They know how to break me
They know you're far away

If this sadness takes its place
I'll free the space it needs
I'm hiding in the place
Where we share the days
Where we share the nights
Go through dark and light

Could you believe I'm waiting for someone
Could you believe I'm holding the night with my hands
Alone in the night on my own
I feel the pain inside me
Only you can heal me

This is something I can't take
I feel so lame
There is nothing in my mind
But you all the way
You rule every moment
You're the air around me

Love's a lonely road sometimes
I keep moving on
Towards the moment you'll be mine
A long way to go
To where we belong
We'll be there before long

Could you believe I'm waiting for someone
Could you believe I'm holding the night with my hands
Alone in the night on my own
I feel the pain inside me
Only you can heal me

By sharing this moonlight
And the tears in my midnight cry
I need to hear you breathe by
Me in the night, deep in the night