Saturday, 23.8.2008, add on to the previous
Diary... Sh*t. F*ck. Sh*tf*ck.
Just came back from the lab. I was so freaking worried that I've forgotten something, or something's not right. And there it was, I forgot my freaking cell phone on my desk. The night guard said that something has been beeping for whole night in the lab, and he thought it'd be a bomb. Looks like it was reminder in my calendar about the amusement park day with my parents.
Then, my curiosity woke up, and I went to check the samples again. I must've stared the lens for minutes without blinking. I've been wondering why on earth the cure is so virulent, strong, versatile, changing, and adabtable. And there it was. For a moment I could see the shape that was much more recognizable, which I've seen so many times during my study. It's a virus. It's a freaking virus. I've been working on a virus for whole time. What on earth are they planning!?! Why I wasn't informed of this? I know this company wanted to keep things thightly from other people's grasps with all the security, secrecy and stuff, but this explains it all. This is b*llsh*t. I should quit this job immediatelly, but so far the paycheck hasn't been that bad, not bad at all. My morale is just waking up and banging my head with issues to whom I'm working for and for what reasons. How are they going to use it? On who? And it's all my work. My work. Congratulations, you're a freaking mass murderer.
Yes, it's definitely a virus, even though it doesn't look like it at first. The signs are clear. Ambisense, ss and ds baltimore group, both DNA and RNA affected, replication site happens in nucleus, cytoplasm, even in archea. Where did they get this sh*t from? I can't tell what viridae it actually is, but I'm sure it's close to retrovirdae. Or could it be that I'm working on group of viruses? Sh*t, sh*t, sh*t!!! I gotta go to work in when I wake up and call of the poker night. I don't care how much those guys owed me, I gotta make a vaccine for this cr*p before it's too late. If I can get any sleep this night, that is... Godspeed.