tää oli ihan odotettavissa. jossain vaihees viel itkisin. ja katuisin kaikkee. kadun et oon vieläkin elos.
"this is my life. worthless and full of hope and misery. These are my dreams. They will never be reality. sometimes i hope everything will go away. sometimes i feel like im nothing. Im doing okey. Still alive, breathing but not trying to keep myself alive. Sometimes i hope ill sleep forever, waking-up to that same reality is worst thing in my day. im so afraid of waking up. all my mistakes take my chance to survive. i wake up everyday with new hope but in the end of the day i see im only empty person."