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"Kill me, I'm useless"

What kept distance between
the suffering and you?
The line I walked towards
was painted black by my prelude

Tie my rope
Choke me untill I can't breathe
Pass out of hope
The luxury disruption

I may be bulletproof
But I can't take another stab
The wall that I've build has gone

... I hate climbing ladders

Cry, cry for the night
Bleeding to the window
Wipe, wipe by the time
The only eyes, just in the mirror

The clock is allready past 5 and I can't sleep and I only see white walls covered in curtains.
These past days have kept me awake for my regret.
I wish I had played my cards better for full house.
Instead of it I only screamed for my hopeless salvation.

I need only 1 moment to feel safe, to give peace to myself for sleep.
If I can't have it, is someone able to grant me it?

Cry, angel of night
The lunar spirit of thy dreams
~

Night time passes, bringing my life back from dust to flames.
Burning crusader, strugling his fate.
Torn by the Venus, insomnia of soul.

My life, shining bright, I rise on my wings.
In thy beautifull petal they create my night again.

I don't always recognize me
Not even my own face
I can't take the ups and downs
So I have to take these pills

And the lights go off
And then I turned around
I got to see your face
As you were falling away
And you looked just like me

I've disconnected
I'm standing in the middle of nowhere
Where nothing's real
I'm stranded in the middle of nowhere

There are some things I just can't control
They're so deep within
And just when I feel I'm ok
And you pretend you're me

And the lights go off
Then I turned around
I got to see your face
As you were falling away
And you looked just like me

I've disconnected
I'm standing in the middle of nowhere
Where nothing's real
I'm stranded in the middle of nowhere at all
There's something wrong
I can't feel the insides of my life
There's something wrong
I'm lost in the middle of nowhere at all

Heräsinkö oikeesti 02:45 ollakseni tietokoneella ja aloittaakseni lukea jotain vanhoja kirjoituksia mitä on tullu kirjoitettua ja jotain tekstejä mitä on tullut tallennettua.

Omaksi 'ilokseni' voin todeta että tein sitä noin 90 minuuttia ja noin 2 tunnin päästä pitäiskin valmistautua kouluun lähtöön...

Herkisteltyäni HETKEN voin todeta että voisi sitä aikaa ehkä paskemminkin käyttää.

Oyasumi~

Abortoituna
Sairaalan lattialla
Maahan paiskattuna
Kauniista maailmasta

Henkiin herätetty;
Meidän messiaamme
Tuokoon kirouksen meidän päällemme
Nostakoon meidät suden kuopasta

I can see
You can see
We can see the falling fighting.

Fall in this developing Metropolice
Thats All digitalized.

We forget having stepped
on the Earth with the shank's mare.
We soak in paradise of the Delight.
Politics and economy are all genetic structure.

Fall
Imagine it.
What do you wish in that?
We are not of machine and iron.

We have an ego and the will.
In the world where everything is made
automation our existance will disappear for long

Say "Fly free, my soul "
We are denied to what oneself.....

Fly for the sky
Tie my ropes
Keep me on a leash
That I have never been

Rise for the time
For the hourglass
That has been turned around
And stopped the flow

Kulje varjoissa
Poissa joukosta
Leiki kuollutta
Kylmällä sydänmellä