IRC-Galleria

viime yö veti routaan tämän maan ja se maa on käärmeitä mustanaan..niin ajattelin hetken ihmistä,joka oli elämän kaaressa hetken osana elämää,vain joitakin vuosia,antoi omanlaisensa kuvan elämän vaikeuksista,tuskasta,kivusta.Hyvin harvoin hymyili ilman kyyneleen kimallusta.hän tuli ja muutti paljon,hän otti mukaan tuskaan ja kipuunsa,minä menin ja jäin kiinni siihen.lujaa ja vielä lujempaa.Viime yönä olisin halunnut kuulla jotain,sen mitä kuuluu?
Onko elämäsi kipua tulvillaan?sattuuko sinun sieluun yhä ja iäti?En tiedä oikeastaan miksi ajatukset viipyi hetken luonasi..tulit niin yllättäin siihen silloin kun jo yö oli vetänyt routaan tämän maan..Minä välitin sinusta,eräs sinua rakastikin kai.moni antoi käden,otit kiinni ja takerruit.Mutta lähdit ilman jäähyväisiä,et sanonut edes näkemiin..
sinä olet vielä nuori,ja mä todella toivoisin että keväällä näät auringon ja se valoa toisikin..
-taivas muuttuu tummemmaksi aurinko on veren punainen,kiskauksia kuuluu maailmalta..

hyvää yötä maailma
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Auta kissaa valloittamaan Irc-Galleria
Lisäämällä tämä sinun päiväkirjaasi !!

kevät paistoi sisään ikkunan takaa,keväällä on ilo ja suru,se muistuttaa ajan kulusta,sulava lumi kuin kristallin kyyneleitä,räystäs itkee,kertooko tarinaa?keväällä on monet kasvot,surun ja ilon..minä kaipasin ja ikävöin jokaisella sulavalla kevään äänellä jotain jo aikojen takaa.Mennyttä aikaa,jotain jolla oli kasvot ja sanoma.jotain johon tarttua hukkumatta,vesipisara joka räystäästä sulaen laskeutuu alas maahan on yllättävän kaunis surumielisyydessään,katson keskittyen ja nimeten sulaneita alas tippuvia pisaroita,niilläkin on elämä,omanlainen tarinansa,kyyneleitä jotka alas maahan laskeutuu...

unta odotellessa.on jo mennyt kauvan tästäkin,paljon sanomattomia sanoja,jotain mitä jäi.

TEKISIKÖHÄN JOTAIN OIKEASTI JÄRKEVÄÄ.

pimeys huutaa tuntematonta,kukaan ei kuule sitä,mutta voi puun välistä kuulla äänen ja kaipuun.minä istuin ja kirjoitin,kirjoitin sanoja,loputtomia sanoja,annoin kivulle kirjaimet,surulle runot,ikävälle kasvot,kyynelin ne peitin pimeyteen..ikävä?mitä se oikeastaan on?onko se sitä että tahdon sanoa sinulle..mietin onko sinun nyt hyvä?tiesitkö että rakastin?nuku rauhassa isä.onko ikävä tuskaa?pelkoa?rakkautta ja vihan yhdistelmää?voinko vihata ja rakastaa?muistathan minä kuljen matkallasi kun sinä kuljet jossain,muistathan?tunnetko että yhteys katosi?soiko sinun ajatuksissasi yö?minä rakastan aina..uskon että tiedät ja tunnet sen.luulen että me jutellaan ja ajellaan se yks kiekka ja toinen ja kolmas.siksi että autossa soi hyvä musa ja me lauletaan äänijänteet punasena..pyydän..onhan sinulla satama ja turva.

aurinko paistaa ihan täysillä.kisuillakin kevät fiilistä selvästi.pölyt hyppii silmille,pahuksen aurinko siis.jälleen puoli perhettä lähti tampereelle..

alkoi vain soida...mitä tänään koulussa opit poika pellava päinen,mitä maailmasta näit sinä silkkihapsinen...että maailmassa on paljon sotia..äh muisti katko?ihmiset vihaavat toisia..kuva nyt ei ehkä osuva kun hautajais arkistoa..mutta pojat on osuvia.

mites tähän tämmöiseen voi jäädä koukkuun..siis nettiin.kun en ole koukussa ollut muuten kuin työ hommissa.sitä se sairasloma tekee.niin huomenta perjantai.ompa ollut mukava viikko kun sai sen yhdenkin ihanan kotiin muutamaksi päiväksi.aina sitä mammat kaipaa,vaikka toiset kasvaa ja on aikuisia..voih.ikävä jäi.ja marweli se kovasti odottaa tuossa että tulispa se.aika yh-eloa muuten kylläkin(tunne)kun j.keikka ja levy vie miestä tampereelle niin paljon.mietinnässä onkin että viihdyttäiskö me tampereella asumassa.jaska viihtyisi tietenkin.itsestä en niinkään varma.uskaltaisikohan kokeilla?

soluja saatu..ja solu kuume päällä.käy ihan työ työstä.tiputus oli taas näitä päiviä kun suoni yks..puhkes.toka oli se muheva mutta vilkas.kolmas sitten saatiin ranteeseen valtimo suaneen.jo on kädet mustelmilla...mutta kiitos kaunis taas niille jotka luovuttavat...jälleen eteenpäin.