how i wish i could surrender my soul;
shed the clothes that become my skin;
see the liar that burns within my needing.
how i wish i'd chosen darkness from cold.
how i wish i had screamed out loud,
instead i've found no meaning.
i guess it's time i run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
i've heard what they say, but i'm not here for trouble.
it's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
how i wish i could walk through the doors of my mind;
hold memory close at hand,
help me understand the years.
how i wish i could choose between Heaven and Hell.
how i wish i would save my soul.
i'm so cold from fear.