"IÂ’m letting go tonight.
Letting go of everything I hold inside me.
Letting go of the what ifÂ’s and the should beÂ’s.
IÂ’m letting go of the anger, the bitterness, the resentment, and most of all, IÂ’m letting go of the hurt.
IÂ’ve let myself hold all of this negativity for months, and IÂ’m realizing now thatÂ’s what is really tearing me apart. From the inside out.
I know in my heart it was never love.
I just wanted to believe it was so bad. So I could move on from my haunted past, start over new.
I realize now how bad it was, how bad we were together. Nothing flowed, clicked; nothing felt right.
It was awkward from the beginning.
I realize now we both were healing, and we thought we could mend each otherÂ’s hearts.
But we knew all along it wouldnÂ’t work.
Perfect on paper, sure. But put us in a room together and the walls come crashing down.
I know you two are perfect, I know you compared me to her all the time. Up on a pedestal I could not compare to.
You two complete each other, I always knew that; the way your eyes softened when I asked about her, the way you said her name.
Nothing beats your first love, I know that first hand. And although the pain wonÂ’t subside immediately, know that I wish you the best. In love, in life.
People come into our lives for a reason, I believe that 100%
I believe I helped you realize what you had was worth saving. I was the one who had to show you how bad it can be so you could appreciate her.
IÂ’m always the one to get hurt in relationships, but IÂ’ll find my way.
I want you to be happy, over everything.
I know you loved her and it never truly went away, and I am so glad that you found what you were looking for. It sucks that my feelings were the ones at cost for you to realize that, but itÂ’s okay.
I donÂ’t want to be bitter anymore. I want to see you filled with joy; no pain, no fighting, just joy. Because that is the love you deserve. ThatÂ’s the love we both deserve.
IÂ’ll never know if what we felt for each other was love, but it felt that way to me. Better than my first, so I donÂ’t need to repeat my past.
Thank you for giving me the strength to move on. You are the one who healed my heart. Who saved me from the abuse I encountered with my previous boyfriend. ThatÂ’s what you were for me, the one who made me believe in myself, believe I was worth being treated right.
I wish you two nothing but happiness, and I really do hope you can work it out. She is exactly what you say she is, your dream girl. I know you wanted it to be me, you told me the same things. I wanted it to be me, more than words can say. But words are just words, they lose their meaning everyday.
But IÂ’m thankful we both realized how horrible it was and move on.
We werenÂ’t right for each other, thatÂ’s the sad truth. But itÂ’s okay.
People meet and date and love so many people who arenÂ’t right for them. We are lucky we quit when we did.
Make it right with her, whatever you have to do. I wish I had the same pleasure of being with my first love, because nothing can ever compare to that.
IÂ’m letting go of you tonight. No more sadness, no more crying. We both deserve to be happy, and thatÂ’s what I intend to do."
