IRC-Galleria

A scattered dream that's like a far-off memory.
A far-off memory that's like a scattered dream.

This body is like chains for me. I'm feeling I can't do anything I really want. Why am I here? Why it's me who has to suffer all this?

It's about five years since this started. I always believed that I really could survive through this. I was wrong. Now when I'm standing here I can't find any other thing why shouldn't I just jump. Still I haven't done it. Not yet. What am I waiting for? I don't really know it myself but someone else does. Please come tell it to me. I can't stand this anymore.

I'm doing this for all of you! Why don't you understand? I can't live anymore. If I do, I'd kill myself much more hurting way and does that satisfy you? Please just let me do it.

When I'm standing here it always makes me think about it. Think about why am I still standing, why haven't I jumped yet. But now I'm decided. I'm gonna do it today. No one can't stop me anymore. I always have difficulties in every kind of things but when I have decided something, I've always done it. So, this will be done too. I'm never gonna live again.

I've tried to tell you a long time! And you haven't noticed anything? Don't say anything! Don't you see these cuts in my hands? Don't you see them in my legs? In my neck? You just don't WANNA see it. None of you cares about me anymore. So why? Why do I have to care about your opinions? I just don't wanna live anymore, so, leave me alone and let me do it.

They all know that I'm here right now. All of them twelve and no one is about to stop me. Is that thanks about everything I've done for them? Everything I've suffered for them? I can't understand why. Maybe it's just my way. It's my destiny to open a road for them and when it's done, I'm useless. Is that why I'm Key of Destiny?

No Saïx! Don't touch me! No one of you or I'm gonna do it here and now. Is that what you all want? Get off me Demyx!

I can remember that moment when I told about my mood. I can remember how Oblivion summoned to my hand and then no one came near me. They know why I have my keyblades and how good I use them. I can remember their faces when I walked out from the room.

I'm sorry. You will understand this later. Just let me do it. You all are the best friends I've ever had but sometimes we have to make difficult choices. This is my choice and it's best for me and you. So don't cry now. You always knew this in your heart.

The first step was the hardest for me. Others was so much easier, it felt like I was flying in the sky. But I wasn't. I had almost stepped down when something crapped in my coat and a warm body nuzzled to me. My tears fell to my cheeks and I felt how arms took me in someones tight hug. The way that Axel hold me said: "Don't ever do this again."

We do too have hearts.

A scattered dream.