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After a fucking crappy week at work, there is only one week until I go for a "holiday" in the UK. Wooptymotherfuckingdo. But yeah, so I just went to check on my booking etc, and find out that I have NO CONFIRMATION NUMBER, which is needed to check in. The words "For fucks sakes" don't even cover this one.

I have quite possibly the worst flatmate on earth. The kitchen looks like a small nuclear weapon has exploded, and I'm expected to clean up.... I clean up after everything I do, whilst she makes a mess, and then goes and does whatever the fuck she does, expecting me to do it.

On top of that, I'm trying to find out what time my friend is working next Saturday, so I can go and surprise him at my old workplace. Asking my boss is one option, but I want it to be a surprise, and so that is totally out of the question.

I dont want to go and pretend that everything is alright, when it's not. I feel yet again like breaking something, because nothing seems to be going right.
In my last 2 years of Sixth Form, I basically threw away my education because I figured that other things were more important.

How wrong I was. When I was at Sopukka, the week before last, we were told that, when our projects here end, we will get no more support from CIMO, the Finnish National Agency who are funding our stays here. I found out on Monday, that my project ends on 31.05, whereas I leave Finland on 14.6. Which has 2 weeks where I am getting no support from anyone. So, if I'm gonna survive, I have to save nearly all my "wages". Impossible.

Then, once I'm back in England, the fun and games really do begin. I will need a job. Fair dues, but for me, finding a job is a nearly impossible task. Whilst "prioritising" at Sixth Form, I forgot that I was there to get good grades, so that I had a future.

Basically, the future is not bright. I have no decent qualifications, no hope of getting a job upon my return to the UK, and basically, nothing.

I'm fucked.