The clock walks on leaving me behind, leaves me thinking of everything I've done and everything I should have done but I didn't. I walk towards the mirror but stop... I'm not sure if I'm able to look at myself anymore. The only thing I will see again is not me, she is just the shell of me, not the true me. My head starts to hurt and I give up...
I'm infront of the mirror looking myself. It's not me... I can't do this anymore, I burst out crying. I just want to be myself! I've been so stupid! Just trying to do what everybody else tells me to do! I don't want to be a puppet anymore!
The feeling of being wanted was the one which kept me going i guess... Such a foolish girl she thinks of herself, they are not worth it, your tears are way more expensive then they are. Pick yourself up and don't blame everybody else, you and only you are the one who got you into this mess so deal with it!
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You walk by me I can't help but look where you're going, behind the corner, okay. I just stare the place where you turned. Suddenly I can seer your face, you look at me and you have this smile on your face which is saying BUSTED! So embarrasing, blushing I run away and I can see that you are still smiling at me and you start laughing! People around you look at you but you don't care. You come to me smiling. Then you ask me Hi, Who might you be?
She watches the sceneary and suddenly his face pops into her mind. She smiles. She thinks of everything he has done and laughs! Then she cries... He told her to forget him and that he never really loved her, he just wanted to see if she was easy... He had others in his mind everytime they hugged, hold each other and - She stops. She doesn't have to think of him! He's not the one who she should cry for, it's the other girls.
Thinking of you, can't get you out of my head! I can see your eyes, your gaze and I freeze. It's cold but it's so warm, I think my heart can't take this anymore! But it's like you would have heard me, coz' you bind me into your arms and say Damn girl, you kept me waiting!
:DD älkää kysykö, oikeesti! :DD löysin jotai tollasia vanhoja juttuja, mun uudemmat o hiukka parempia! :DD ja ne on ihanan pitkiä ja ajatuksella tehtyjä :DD joo, nyt piän suuni kiinnii... :XX
