“You are the spawn of a coldhearted existence,
Beware because there is no doubt that you would tag along
It’s in your blood to break their hearts and kill a soul or two
Beware daughter of he whom cannot be named
Because it’s you who’s destined to tear them down.”
I walk through the world with a smile on my face
My head up in the clouds and laughter all around
But deep inside all I really wanted was to disappear
And get as far away as I could from here
From this ghost town we keep as a temporary home
The one where I learned everything I know from a man
He can’t stand to look at my face anymore
He likes to pretend that I don’t exist
I want to get out of this skin
He created it, and he never wants to see me again.
I’ve walked through the halls of the places I’ve known
And I recap all of the stories that my life has retold
A tale of unrequited love, hate, distrust, suffering, denial
It was a tale of a girl who tried her best to stay alive
But inside she had died, and now there is nothing left
Yet she still convinces the world that she’s smiling
But it’s all okay, as long as that’s what they all believe.
She pauses at the break of day to put her hand on her chest
Waiting a few moments just to make sure she breathes again
Her head aches with the reminiscences of things she wish never occurred
The things that made the connections to her father grow
She will never forget the looks on the faces of people
When she hurt them, when she let them down
Nobody will ever understand
The guilt she carries around with her everyday.
I know that anecdote by heart, and I live it everyday
I exist only to know that I will never truly live again
I warn you now, keep a safe distance because you’ll soon find out
He taught me how to be shameless, and nothing will stop me now
I’m just a corpse with a pulse and a hateful frame of mine
But in my mind, you’ll surely find, that love once sang out.