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Nothing.
Absolutely nothing is in my mind.
Just flowing.
Flowing over reality, feeling nothing.
Into the dark, into unreality.
Into this day.
Crying,
Yelling,
Screaming.
Suffering,
falling apart,
bleeding.
Feeling pain.
Numb.
Scared.
Weak.
Broken.
Thinking.
"Why?"
"Why here?"
"Is it safe anymore?"
Hoping.
"This is just a dream."
"Everything is OK."
"Nothing ever happened."
And facing the truth.
"It happened. People died."
BUT.
Things are what they are.
No-one can change that fact.
All we can do is to do our own part.
This world is built with pieces.
We are part of it.
We are made to build the puzzle.
We are made to live together.
So why, why do we fight?
To build our own world, own puzzle, is that what we want?
Or do we want a bigger piece of this world, is that what we want?
Do we want to make the world better in our way, and because of that someone suffers?
This world holds anger, hate, and evil.
Sometimes we don't know what is right, what is wrong.
That's why we make mistakes, which is OK.
Actually, we MUST make mistakes.
To learn from them.
To learn, what is wrong, what is right.
To learn, shooting may kill.
To learn, other people PROBABLY are the same as you and me.
To learn, we may hate others, but we shouldn't make a revenge.
To learn, we may hate others behaving but we should forgive.
To learn, we can't live long without partner.
I like to use Bible as a source of rules, what is right, what is wrong.
That is the way I love Bible. So let's take a part of it:
Jesus has said: "You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, 'Do not murder and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment.' But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment. Again, anyone who says to his brother, 'Raca' is answerable to the Sanhedrin. But anyone who says, 'You fool!' will be in danger of the fire of hell.
Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.
Settle matters quickly with your adversary who is taking you to court. Do it while you are still with him on the way, or he may hand you over to the judge, and the judge may hand you over to the officer, and you may be thrown into prison. I tell you the truth, you will not get out until you have paid the last penny.
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You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."
We'll keep you guys in our memories.
Forever.
For the memory of victims of the Kauhajoki massacre. (F)
