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taas tein sen mikä mua vaivaa... just kun olin saamassa asiat kuntoon ni pilasin kaiken...
oikeesti.. mussa onpahasti jotain vialla kun kusen kaikki asiat... tänään sain korjattua vähän ni 5min ja kusin kaiken... mä en jaksa tätä paskaaa...

vittu tein jotain mitä en voi enää ikinä peruutaa... jotain minkä takia tulen kärsimään koko ikäni jotain mitä vannoin etten ikinä tee..... nyt koko vitun elämä on pilalla.... tapoin sen henkisesti... ei ollut tarkoitus en vaan tajunnut mitä tein en tarkoittanut mitään pahaa. en tajunnut kun se sanoi Ei nyt saan vaan syyttää itseäni siitä virheestä... kaikki suunnitelmat kaikki haaveet kaatuivat siinä hetkessä kaikki mitä oli on nyt poissa... poissa ikuisesti...... miten pystyn korvaamaan kaiken pahan minkä tein?????????

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

I'll fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the wall someday
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you

kello tulee puol 7 aamulla ja oon vieläkin hereillä. mietin kaikkea mitä on tapahtunut... jotain mitä ei voi enää ikinä korjata. jotain minkä takia en enää löydä mitään syytä elää. tämä prinsessan sydän on särkynyt ja sielu on valunut pois kyynelten mukana...

Tämä kaikki sattui liian lujaa pieneen enkeliin,
joka kaiken turhaan antaneena särkyi asfalttiin,
nyt hän yksin valvoo ja laiturilla odottaa että laiva saapuu
ja sirpaleet pois kuljettaa

tekis mieli vaan itkee, mut silmät on niin kipeet etten pysty...
en tehnyt sitä tahallani tai en tajunnut mitä tein mutta kaikki on poissa nyt ja se sattuu.
mä luulin et ois viä toivoa... tais ollakkin mutta ei enää.... ARGH...

Ees kirjoittaminen ei auta kun pyörii nimi ja ääni päässä... sitä ihanampaa asiaa ei ole mun elämässä ollut se toi valon mun elämään ja nosti mut ylös pohjalta. se sai aikaan kaikkea kaunista ja ihanaa. Kaikki oli hyvin mut enää on jäljellä vain tyhjyys..
tää runo on omistettu sille yhdelle:

Muistoja monia hyviä ja huonoja. Rakkautemme on kirjoitettu tähtiin. Luen niitä joka ilta ja odotan että pääsen luoksesi ylös taivaisiin. Suljen silmäni tunnen kylmää ranteellani. Hetki menee ja sekunnit kuluu pian nousen ylöspäin ja leijun luoksesi valoon olethan siellä odottamassa minua...

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

"One Step Closer"

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

[Chorus:]
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before...

[Chorus]

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up

I'm about to BREAK

[Chorus]

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Still Alive

There are those days
when I can get no sleep
I'm so tried I'd like
to fall inte Sleep
I fall in my Bed
but still I'm Alive

These questions in my
mind are so much
bigger than Life
I have to leave
them behind
I have to try to forget
that I am still in my bed

In my deepset fears
I'm losing you
Even if somebody
tried to stop my heart
I'm still Alive
I will never give up

Just turn off the lights
Don't wanna
see me die
I look like I'm dead but
when you look at me
I am still alive

Just open your eyes
Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you
want be to be fighting
with myself

All I need to feel is your
breath on my skin
This endless longing
between You and me
We can't give up now
we're gonna make it
somehow

In my Sweetest Dreams
I'm with you
even if somebody
tried to stop my heart
I'm still alive
I will never give up

Just turn of the lights
Don't wanna see me die
I look like I'm dead but
when you look at me
I'm still alive

Just open your eyes
Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you
want be to be fighting
with myself

Here we go again, motherfucker

Come on down, and see the idiot right here
Too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
What's the matter with calamity anyway?
Right? Get the fuck outta my face
Understand that i can't feel anything
It isn't like i wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound, like a got a fuckin'
Gun against my head, you live when I'm dead

One more time, motherfucker

Everybody hates me now, so fuck it
Blood's on my face and my hands, and i
Don't know why im not afraid to cry
But thats none of your business
Whose life is it? Get it? See it? Feel it? Eat it?
Spin it around so i can spit in its face
I wanna leave without a trace
Cuz i dont wanna die in this place

People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gunna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz i am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (Im everything you'll never be)
People = Shit

It never stops - you cant be everything to everyone
Contagion - Im sittin' at the side of satan
What do you want from me?
They never told me the failure i was meant to be
Overdo it - dont tell me you blew it
Stop your bitchin' and fight your way through it
IM - NOT - LIKE - YOU - I - JUST - FUCK - UP

C'mon motherfucker everybody has to die

People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gunna do)
People = Shit (Cause im not afraid of you)
People = Shit (Im everything you'll never be)
People = Shit