IRC-Galleria

You're probably wondering why I am writing in here; truth to tell I do not know the answer to this question myself. I just felt like writing and I felt like writing in English and since I've not had a blog for years I figured if it's not forbidden I'll just write here till I'm content.

Earlier.... well yesterday I took the trash out. There was a pan in the trash and for some strange reason I felt guilty throwing it away. I had had that pan for years and even though we had agreed it looked like it had cancer, I couldn't help but think that I had used that pan to prepare my food for all those years.... Why? I mean why do I feel guilty even if just a little bit.... For disposing of a pan?

Another question that is oh so difficult to answer; I mean I can understand if it was something living...... Like a pet or an ex boyfriend... that I wanted to leave behind in life. Then I could understand that I would feel guilty over it even if I probably shouldn't. But why a pan? OVERALL why do I feel guilty if I throw something away. And to add to the question it doesn't even have to be something I've used; I'll just feel guilty over throwing it away and not even having used it.

Gods sometimes life is difficult.

Leaving past behind.... Not so easy. Whether it is an ex or just some part of your life that you wish to forget, it will always be difficult to deal with. You will always find it behind some future corner of your life. What you leave behind you'll end up finding before you.... That's how it tends to work. One way or another. Even though I really do hope I wont find my pan walking anywhere with its' cancer. Maybe it'll turn out radioactive and overgo some mutations? Hope not.

Why do things have to change so much.....? Why do stuff get old or go out of shape?`Corrose? Why do you always have to need something new? Why isn't the old good enough? There are so many questions in this world and so few answers in comparison.

And well in my case to be fair; the pan did appear to have cancer.