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Up there (yeah)

Who do I have?

Heaven and hell, my friend (my friend)

I won't shed a tear,

Let them see me in pain again,

Hello (hello), from the dark side in,

Does anybody here wanna be my friend? (my friend)

Want it all to end,

Tell me when the fuck is it all gon' end? (end)

Voices in my head,

Telling me I'm gonna end up dead (dead)

So save me (save me)

Before I fall (i fall)

So save me,

I don't wanna go alone (alone)

So save me (save me)

Before I fall (i fall)

So save me (save me)

I don't wanna go alone.

I think I, I think I finally,

Found a way to forgive myself,

From mistakes I made in the past,

I think that's the first step, right?

You agree?


I've dug two graves for us, my dear,

Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear,

Oh man, what a world, the things I hear,

If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?

Some kill, some steal, some break your heart,

And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk,

Well, broken hearts break bones, so break up fast,

And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot,

I've dug two graves for us, my dear,

Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear,

Oh man, what a world, the things I hear,

If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?

Some kill, some steal, some break your heart,

And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk,

Well, broken hearts break bones, so break up fast,

And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

I'll rot, I'll rot, I'll rot (is my pain your freedom?)

Is all of my pain your freedom?

Enjoy

I don't feel much pain,

Got a knife in my back and a bullet in my brain,

I'm clinically insane,

Walkin' home alone I see faces in the rain,

Where did all the time go?


I can show you everything I learned,

While you were away from me,

Runnin' away from me, but I'm not givin' up on you,

It's just the way I be,

It's just the way I see things,

Take her away from me, but I'm not givin' up on you, no,

It's just the way I be,

It's just the way I see things.

You should've seen by the look in my eyes,

That there was something missing,

You should've known by the tone of my voice,

But you didn't listen,

You play dead, but you never bled,

Instead you lie still in the grass all coiled up and hissing.


And I know all about those men,

Still I don't remember,

Because it was us baby way before them,

And we're still together.


And I meant every word I said,

When I said that I love you I meant that I love you forever.


And I'm gonna keep on loving you,

Because it's the only thing I wanna do,

I don't wanna sleep,

I just wanna keep on loving you..


And I meant every word I said,

When I said that I love you, I meant that I love you forever...


And I'm gonna keep on loving you,

Because it's the only thing I wanna do,

I don't wanna sleep,

I just wanna keep on loving you..


I don't wanna sleep,

I just wanna keep on loving you.

Starry eyes,

How can I get to you, my true little,

Starry eyes,

What can I say or do for you, my little,

Starry eyes,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine,

Starry eyes,

What can I say to make you listen,

Starry eyes,

What can I do for your attention,

Starry eyes,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine,

When I'm alone I hear and feel you,

Wish that I could reach right out and touch you,

But knowing you're the one to greet me, and meet me,

Two alone in the dark, may it be,

Starry eyes,

The sparks will fall on me,

Starry eyes,

Won't you listen that I'm here being,

For you, starry eyes,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine.

And when you go away,

I still see you,

The sunlight on your face in my rearview.


Sunsets,

I wanna hear your voice,

A love that nobody could destroy.


And when you go away,

I still see you,

The sunlight on your face in my rearview,

This always happens to me this way,

Recurring visions of such sweet days.

Oh, I missed you and I cried,

But I said that I was alright,

And I know it's been a while,

Since I needed a distraction,

'Cause I wanna do everything,

That you want me to, to tell you the truth,

I need to stay alive,

So sad that I could die,

It's leading me on, every time we touch,

Leading me on, every time it hurts,

Feeling so lonely, 'cause it's not enough,

Missin' you only ever since we fell in love,

And I watched you do a line,

That you spread out on the table,

I don't need to see you wired,

I just wanna see you upside down,

I wanna do everything,

That you want me to, to tell you the truth,

I listen to you cry all night,

Through the telephone,

It's leading me on, every time we touch,

Leading me on, every time it hurts,

Feeling so lonely, 'cause it's not enough,

Missin' you only ever since we fell in love,

Couldn't say you didn't want me there,

When we were lyin' in my bed that night,

You were acting like a different person,

As if, suddenly, you wanted to just be friends,

I was hurting so I took a shower,

So you couldn't hear me, knowing I had to cry,

Sad to know that while my heart was breaking,

You were sleeping or just faking,

It's leading me on, every time we touch,

Leading me on, every time it hurts,

Feeling so lonely, 'cause it's not enough,

Missin' you only ever since we fell in love.

When I was young, I thought the world of you,

You were all that I wanted then,

It faded and I never saw you again,

But I won't forget the love we had.


Come to me now,

Don't let me go,

Stay by my side,


Don't let me go,

Stay with me still,

I've missed you so.


When I was young, I thought the world of you,

I was dumb to let you drift away,

And though I guess it had to come to an end,

No one else could have the love we shared.


Come to me now,

Don't let me go,

Stay by my side,


And my heart goes out to you,

Wherever you are.


Come to me now,

Don't let me go,

Stay by my side,


Don't let me go,

Stay with me still,

I've missed you so.

en ymmärrä miks se sattuu näin paljon.
miks nyt?
miks ei viimevuonna? terapiassa?
miks nyt.

saatoin tulla kotiin ja tarkistaa et olitko sun huoneessa pelaamassa niiku aina. tiesin miten turhaa se oli mut, tein sitä monta viikkoa.
elin mun daydream maailmassa.
saatoin vaan olla ja tuijottaa mun vaaleanpunaisia seiniä ja olin täydessä transsissa siitä mitä olisi voinut olla.
et oisit kotona ku tuun kotii. pelaamassa sun pelejä.
unelmoin aina kaikesta.
ja ainaku nukuin näin painajaisia.
siitä mite mun vanhemmat oli ammuttuja ku tulin kotii.
menetys on asia,
mikä vie kaiken.
se on vienyt multa kaiken.
se vei multa ne ketä rakastin.
willen.
eddyn.
koht on nupun vuoro.
en halua kuolla, mutta mietin aina että miks miun piti käydä niin paljon läpi.
miks selvisin.
ei mun ois pitäny.
ei mun pitäis olla tässä.
mut mul on velvollisuus olla tässä.
mulla on syy.
tiedän mun tarkoitukseni maailmassa ja edes se ei ole minua itseäni varten.