And then I found out how hard it is to really change.
Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in.
I just wanted the numb inside me to leave.
No matter how fucked you get,
the sun will return and you come back down.
The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had.
There's glimpses of heaven in every day,
in the friends that I have, the music I make,
the love that I feel.
I just had to start again.