I have wondered many times that what you say when this is over. completely. Now everything seems wrong. it all seems pointless now. why all this was given to me. can anyone realize that I'm tired. my life is falling apart. actually it is already in pieces. my mind is a cage where there is no exit. The final solution is near. the idea that suffering would disappear. it is close. all the endless visions easier life will be gone. but all is well. this is just a life where I was forced to... :)