My head is full of thoughts...so many thoughts, nice and sad thoughts, that should not be just before you go to bed...I have to stop thinking so much after ten.
Mostly my thoughts are about well... Marc ( some people know who I mean) I would like to know how what goes through his mind all day long...
I also think a lot about my girly, she was just such a sunshine in my life, it still hurts when I think about her...
It is like an nightmare when I relive her death... I was there, try to hold her, but I could not properly, I cryed and could not hide my tears...It was so awefull seeing her suffer the last hour of her life... I wished she would have no suffering for her end...
I miss her tapsing every day...I still hear her sometimes how she cryed before she fell...on my hands...well I guess I have to let her go ... she had a good life...
But for now, I´ll say good night...