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sometimes it seems that I was supposed to be a profiler...
I know people even though I have not met them in person before... or is it only, that I listen well how they talk and what they wish for...
that I can make a picture of that person inside my head and know how to talk to them...
well life is full of surprising things...
its always fun try to figure out what kind of person there is before you...
I am sorry people , when I am writing in English, but this as always been the language I could express myself the best.
I am a thinker...even though I seem sometimes shallow...its just the part of me who does not want everyone to know who I really am. I am still inside a scared soul in search for the one thing, what is missing in my life...my roots...becuase you cant grow without roots, it is as simple as that!
My gosh Im philosophic again ;)

se on nyte niin, että on ilta sunnuntain, en oikeastaan halu edes mennä nukkumaan, en tiedä oikeastaan miksi, mutta mua nyt ei vielä oikeesti nukuta ...

My head is full of thoughts...so many thoughts, nice and sad thoughts, that should not be just before you go to bed...I have to stop thinking so much after ten.

Mostly my thoughts are about well... Marc ( some people know who I mean) I would like to know how what goes through his mind all day long...

I also think a lot about my girly, she was just such a sunshine in my life, it still hurts when I think about her...

It is like an nightmare when I relive her death... I was there, try to hold her, but I could not properly, I cryed and could not hide my tears...It was so awefull seeing her suffer the last hour of her life... I wished she would have no suffering for her end...

I miss her tapsing every day...I still hear her sometimes how she cryed before she fell...on my hands...well I guess I have to let her go ... she had a good life...

But for now, I´ll say good night...