living is easy with eyes closed
i'm trying to be happy but i think it's pretty obvious by now that it isn't my strongest forte.
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i'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breath in and out all day long. then, after a while i won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breath in and out.
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i donÂ’t remember, donÂ’t recall, canÂ’t even begin to imagine when all of this began. all i know is that iÂ’ve always been like this. maybe not as drastic, but i have. i have been like this. for years. years.