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In the shadows of my mind
it creeps
Cunningly avoiding daylight
it peeks
Whispering softly
its awful words
"She'll be gone quickly
and you'll get hurt"

It knows my weakest moments
and hits right then
It sees my deepest fears
and tries to multiply them
Whispering softly
its awful words
"She'll find someone fancy
and fall in love with her."

Like a mosquito
it circulates me
Like a small needle
it goes under my skin
Like a northern breeze
it makes me shiver
It's such a tease
whisper in my ear:

"This won't last long
I know it for sure
You're gonna loose her
And that's how it'll end!"

And when I'm done with it
I feel mad as hell
I know I don't have to take this shit
So I just stand up and yell:

Big black monster, go away
Big black monster, hear me say
If she's ever gonna leave me
It's only you who will be

the most likely cause

And when I'm done with it
I feel mad as hell
I know it'll be back with this shit
But at least now I can yell:

Big black monster, go away
Big black monster, hear me say
If she's ever gonna leave me,
It's only you who will be

the most likely cause.

I haven't been here for long
I can't tell u what kind of
place was this in 90s

But I know this is among
the best places I could think of
living in my 20s

And that's simply
because I feel
these might be my hoods

And if these are my hoods
don't u come
shouting under my window
( in my bed )

And if these are my hoods
don't u come
puking on my front step
( naivety )

And if these are my hoods
don't u come
stealing away my bike
( heart )

And if these are my hoods
don't u come
crashing into me on a street
( bumping )

The biggest reason why I
like these hoods so much
is that I'm not alone
(even if I were lonely)

So I guess
these are my hoods

"On se niin olematoonta. Mä jo luulin, jotta näistä mooniksista ny olis päästy, ku ei niitoo hetkehen näkyny, ja sitte niiren pitää tulla justihin NY ku ei näiren kans ny millää kerkiääsi asuulemahan ku on muutenki niin kauhia tressi. Meiltä kuoli yks poikaki eileen. Sellaanen kolomesataakiloonen mullikka. Sielä se makas ketarat oijos! Pitää syörä itte, ku ei taurasauto sen takia viittiny lähtiä tulemahan. Isäntäki jo sanoo, jotta kyllä ny vastustaa! Ja tähän kaikkehen ny sitte jokku moonikset! En kyllä tiä, jotta mitä tästäki joulusta oikeen ny tuloo!"

- asiakas X:n koko kaupalle kailottamaa

B: Joko sua ny on ruvennu karuttamahan?
A: Mikä?
B: No se opiskelupaikan valinta tietysti!
A: No ei kai mua ny se kaduta!
B: Vielä. Hmph. Sellaasta mielikuvitusta koko psykolokia.

- Bertta Rahko

"(Patient) NA became amnesic as a result of having a fencing foil forced up his nostril and into his brain."

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Onneksi en syöny samalla ku luin.

Look at me
when I'm laughing and dancing
when I'm walking head up high
when I'm leaning on a stranger

Look at me
how wrong you were
how I'm still wanted
how I don't even see you

Don't look
when I go to bed alone
when I don't get up in the morning
when I'm too tired to take a shower
when I'm staying in the whole day

I'm doing great,

in case you'd ask.

syön mitä sattuu
milloin sattuu
hällä väliä

juon, jos huvittaa
milloin huvittaa
hällä väliä

nukun missä vain
milloin vain
hällä väliä

kulutan aikani turhuuksiin
turrutan aistini
kovia ääniä
nopeasti vaihtuvia kuvia

hällä väliä,

ettet enää välitä

niin kauan kuin minun,
ei tarvitse ajatella

hällä väliä

Neljättä tuntia
makaan sängyssä
ja lasken kuoppia
tapetin alla seinässä kolme
vieressäni tämä yksi
sinun patjaani painama
nyttemmin tyhjäksi jäänyt

Puuvilla minua vasten
hiostavan karheana
annan päivän hiljalleen
huveta pois yön tieltä
odotan pakoreittiä
unessa voin vielä
kuvitella lakanani ihoksesi.

words like love
seem so easy to achieve
a beautiful girl
longing for you to hold her
through the night
feel her heart against yours
beating at the same rate
taste the pleasure
and store it under your skin
then listen to her falling asleep,
breathing calming down

and make sure
you'll remember
every moment of it

because after all

words like love
are rarely solid

and there's always
that tomorrow
when she might be gone

There's a small creature
who eats kind words
There's a small creature
longing for to be heard

There's a small creature
who sucks warmth out of others
There's a small creature
envying all lovers

There's a small creature
who's terrified of not being cared
There's a small creature
dying to be just held

There's a small creature
who needs people around to breathe
There's a small creature
unable to find peace

There's a small creature
whom I can't set free
Even though that small creature's
living inside of me

Kellon tikityksen rytmittämä
pimeässä kasvava tyhjyys
ohikuluvasta ajasta riippumaton
toisen lämmöstä
hetkeksi tyyntyvä
silti alati läsnä
painostavana
levon hetkellä
hiipien mieleen
hiljainen kuiskaus:
"Ei sinusta
maailma hyödy
eikä sinua kukaan
omakseen halua."

Ahdistuneena tihentyvä hengitys
koittaa tavoittaa unen
painajaisista raskaan.