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Imagine a world without doubt. Without self pity. A world where everyone is granted the gift of divine wisdom. A world where people are not run by feelings but by reason and causality. Where chance and chaos have little room. Where everything is possible to be known beforehand. How would that be?

It might work for some, and for some it wouldn´t. I can´t deny that people need feeling and passion to create some contrast into their lives. But something is not right here. People don´t, in the end, think. Everytime I fall into being even slightly naiive, and for a moment cease to believe in the most cynical outcome, I am always thinking the wrong way and end up being mistaken. One should doubt. Not believe. But then again if I believe this, don´t I sort get tripped by my own rule?

Perhaps. If you do not take my word for it that I actually think this instead of believing. A philosophy of life is a slightly different thing than believing. This time though, all is not lost. I simply lack the self confidence needed to believe in my chances. One thing I must remember. If I end up falling too hard, and decide to give up, I should do it without making a scene. She hates scenes like that. And my credibility would be gone in her eyes. I am different. You will see. I hope.