IRC-Galleria

Why does it always have to be me who is alone? Why can't people just get to know me before they start to judge? I know I'm full of shit and selfish but still. Why do I always have to lie for those I love? Why do I have to be me?! "Outside the dawn is breaking but inside in the dark I'm aching to be free" sang once a wise man, now dead though. Maybe I just should say goodbye for this place. Nobody won't miss me anyway. I just bring suffering and bad feeling for those around me. I could fly to some better place and watch you from there. And perhaps, when the time is right, I could come down and sit on your shoulder and look after you. Maybe that way I could get my sins forgiven and be in peace once again.

You maked my life so much better. You brought that thing what was missing. But, once again, because of my stupid and selfish mistakes I lost you to the winds of life. I can't never forgive that to myself. I came down as fast as I went up.

If I had a one wish, it wouldn't be traveling back in time but to quit lying. If that is possible, I would be able to continue somehow.. perhaps... Only God knows and mysterious are His ways (though I don't believe in God), but still if there is some greater power in this universe, it could do something. Not just watch when we cry ourselfs to sleep.

There are so much things I could learn from you. You are so great. Everybody likes you. I'll never forget what you have done for me. You and couple of others will always have a place in my heart and I will always remember you.