IRC-Galleria

hmmmm lemme see its 8:43 in the morning and i still cant sleep . My thoughts are eating me up . And the crying..... i wish itd stop ... a womans intutition they say is very strong. i wish mines wasnt... for the past two weeks ive been in an see saw ... i don t know whats goin on in my special someones head. i feel so used and un respected and just hurt. its like im on the bottom of his so called "social life". and its so wrong to be just a speck in someones world when you made them your entire world... and im not sayin theres nothing but him.. but i showed him respect and put him first because thats how its supposed to go . now i dunno how they do in finland but even my ex who beat the shit out of me showed me more respect then my current and thats what hurts .. i dunno if i just have it alll in my head or wha but right now he makes me feel so low . like im nothing and thats not right ... the man in your life is supposed to make you happy and he just doesnt all he does is make me cry and wonder.your probably asking yourself righ now why havent i broke up with him.... well heres the craziest part i dotn want to .. i love him and when hes good 2 me he makes me sooooo happy and just like i am his world.. its just lately hes changed and its changing me.... i dont like the way i feel now .. i just wanna feel like im something to him .. not an obligation.... (and if you happen to read this bubu* i dont mean this in a bad way at all i just miss YOU being YOU .. show me that people werent right about you ... prove them wrong.....) welll im gna try for the hundreth time to fall asleep .. and maybe i will and ill wake up and everything will be ok ( a girl can dream cant she)







* names being held because he hasnt told people we togethor( thats what hurts the most)