IRC-Galleria

I finally see the truth behind this life and lie youve built

You brought me into this world to fill me up with guilt

I wake up every single day trying to hold on to my breath

Im sick and tired of breathing, I dont care about the rest

What does love mean really? Sadly I just dont know

Growing up in my life....I had nothing to show

except for bruises and scars all over my body

Im surprised Im still alive, with all this shit God put on somebody

I lived my life to learn 1 thing and I share that thing today

I know this bullshit gets hard sometimes but everything will be ok

Sometimes you just have to lie to yourself

just to keep on holding on

When youve been beat and broken down

You write these sad, sad songs

Thats all I ever knew but I hope that it all changes

I went from gutter broke, to seeing spotlights where my name is

But still sometimes it hurts inside

for what theyve put me through

Sure you think you know me now, but its time to tell the truth

The truth about my life without all the glitz and glamour

I starved myself to death one time, and then I got beat with a hammer

Then when I was only 12 they put me in the slammer

I used to rob and break in houses, I did what I had to do

I didnt give a fuck about life and used to always act a fool

but looking back now on all those things it wasnt all my fault

I had no one to love me ever....so I put my life on a screeching halt

Yet for some odd reason I came out of it alive

Today I am a positive woman all I do is strive

I strive to be a better person I want a better life

So that one day I can settle down and call myself a wife

I dont want to feel this pain no more

This is as much as a human can take

You think Ive had all this luck and have eaten all my cake?

Well think again before you judge someone

You may think that its fun

But look into my deep dark eyes

Youll see the other side.

I been through shit and back and then sometimes back again

The hardest thing in this life is to hold on the best I can

To come this far and be successful from where I was before

I am absolutely filled with gratitude...I love God forever more

If it werent for my inner strength I would have gone long ago

But still I have a few more things to do...a few more years to go

You may look at my pretty pictures and see my pretty face

but behind all of that beauty...lies an empty heart that lost its place

I want to say all of this to you because you are all my friends

I just want to put the truth out there open heart and make amends

Im not afraid to put this out there as only God can judge me

You have your right to say what you want, but that wont go above me

This message is for all of you out there who suffer immensely too

I know that shit gets hard sometimes.....but just hold on and youll get through

Im a fine example so dont think that its a lie

You are the only love I know.....you all make time go by...

BROKEN LULLABY


I miss missing you cuz I don't miss you no more

The future of us....seems like a folklore...

Told in story....from a land of make believe

The love of you and I....is all but a dream

Who are we kidding? We're not meant to be

As much as I want it....there's no you and me

Tis sad but so true

I miss missing you

The days of pure bliss is nothing more than through

How can I say this without a tear in my eye?

But that's the way I am...I always cry with dry eyes

For my heart is filled with cold and dark dust

Like Rocks amongst the planters crusp

The rich smooth silk of burden bee's

My heart it loves you....But my life will set you free.

Don't ask me why you don't understand

I'm sorry but this was not a part of my plan

Please take this chance and get away from me....

Get away as far.... as far as you can be

After a while, you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning And company doesn't mean security And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts And presents aren't promises And you begin to accept your defeats With your head held high and your eyes open With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child You learn to build your roads on today because tomorrow's grounds Is too certain for plans, and futures have a way Of falling down in midflight After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers And you learn that you really can endure That you really are strong and you really do have worth And you learn and learn........and you learn With every goodbye you learn. .. "You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you have, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from your mistakes, but never regret. People change; things go wrong, just remember life goes on

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your loves closed
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on,
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery

haha saturday nite and i come home early .. i cant even stay up past 2 anymore ::Shrugs::
oh well maybe i shld take this all to heart as a good thing... something good always comes out of something not so good... i was in a hurry to do what i thought i had to do and i didnt think..well i thougth and im gonna do what i wanna do not what everyone thinks i shld do ( for those of you who know what im talkin about im sorry i kno yall think i shld do the opposite of what im doin but i gotta do this or im gonna regret it for the rest of my life) and im gonna do this by myself cuz im not doin to piss anybody off or to get back at someone im doin this bcause i cuz i need it.........for those who have no idea what im talkin about stay tuned... i will make an announcement soon :)


good nite !!!!

So Far Away"

I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
(I've been changin' but you'll never see me now)
Now I'm blaming you for everything

No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away

[Chorus]
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything

No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
Cause I will be busy watching things going my way
Never looking back on this anymore
Because what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away

[Chorus]

I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
Now I'm blaming you for everything

I'm so far away

Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey hey I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say

[Chorus]

Now I'm blaming you

I'm so far away

IVE MADE A CHANGE IN MY LIFE.. I WANNA BE HAPPY... TIRED OF MESSIN WIT ALL THE BULLSHIT... IM GONNA TRY TO CHANGE MYSELF .. TRY TO TRUST PEOPLE...IM GONNA TRY TO LET PEOPLE IN .. AND IM NOT GONNA AUTOMATICALLY ASSUME SOMEONES BAD .. ITS TIME TO NOT BE A BITCH...FROM NOW ON IM GONNA BE NICE BECAUSE I CAN TAKE OUT THE PAST ON THE FUTURE... CUZ THE FUTURE HASNT HURT ME ... BUT IF I ASSUME IT WILL I WILL FUCK UP MY FUTURE AND IM NOT .. IM GONNA START TRUSTIN PEOPLE ... CUZ I DONT TRUST ANYONE AND ITS LIKE THEY SAY ITS LONELY AT THE TOP .... AND IM THERE RT NOW .. I GOT EVERYTHING ANYONE COULD ASK FOR BUT NO ONE TO SHARE IT WI TH :(

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

Put in the keys, make that engine purr
3 in the back, one in the passenger
Slow creepin', 'cause i look that fly
All the boys tryin' taste my candy ride


im doin' things that the girls don't do
The boys stare, i smile back


Bet you ain't never seen
Chick ridin' this clean
Louis Vuitton seats
i do it deadly
This how ikeep it poppin'
Make sure that bass knockin'
So when you see meridin'
i call it show stoppin'

That's how i keep it poppin'
Make sure that bass knockin'
So when you see me ridin'
i call it show stoppin'

im sittin' on 22s plus 2
Mink bucket seats, neon blue
Color coordinate with them shoes
Yeah, we divas
But we ride like big boys do

Black tinted with a white stripe interstate
Lookin' in the mirror at my Bad Boy fitted, yup
Show stoppin' 'til they lose their breath



This is for my chicas with the Beamers A6s
'67 Chevys, Maserati, or a Lexus
Say oh, oh
Break 'em off somethin' proper
Like a real show stopper





Tonight im goin' swervin'
Bustin' slides, hittin' curbs
And ghost ridin' on the whips
Hit tonight
That's what it's gonna be about
Watch my trunk go bouncy bounce
Girls gon' ridin'


I know you see a wifey
But peep my ride go hyphy

i feel so popular lol

damn girl its a minute/and why these niggas trifiling/when u let em hit it?/na i aint trying get da best of you/or just tryin' have sex with you/i just wanna bless you boo/so fuck da nigga next to you/these fools actin like they perfect/but fuck these clowns/ask anybody real about me/and they'll tell dat im worth it/fuck a myspace/i want you here/in my face/with dat thick fine waist/we can wine and dine/then i can take you to my place/gurl dont it take da wrong way/i just aint tryna fuck/but boo/i can make luv to u all day/so fuck these herbs/and fuck what they all say/i got alot of haters/similar to crabs in a bucket/but fuck it/when bitches hate/its only a compliment/these niggas aint stoppin shit/fuck an acapella/you can peep this to an instrumental/so need to get a pencil/and if crab niggas wanna rap about me/pistol whip to da dental/na i aint claimin to be no gangsta/but u threaten my family/i probally run up and shank ya/but i do this for fun/cause and i aint no rappa/but ill fuck around/and run up and clap ya/you look like da type/thats down to ride/shit, we can be like bonnie ane clyde/with u by my side/you holdin my glock/while im grippin them thighs/and i can tell when u lie lies/when i look your eyes/and i can tell when niggas hate/cause im da one they despise....blazai blah.....thats for queen in 10 minutes