IRC-Galleria

I finally see the truth behind this life and lie youve built

You brought me into this world to fill me up with guilt

I wake up every single day trying to hold on to my breath

Im sick and tired of breathing, I dont care about the rest

What does love mean really? Sadly I just dont know

Growing up in my life....I had nothing to show

except for bruises and scars all over my body

Im surprised Im still alive, with all this shit God put on somebody

I lived my life to learn 1 thing and I share that thing today

I know this bullshit gets hard sometimes but everything will be ok

Sometimes you just have to lie to yourself

just to keep on holding on

When youve been beat and broken down

You write these sad, sad songs

Thats all I ever knew but I hope that it all changes

I went from gutter broke, to seeing spotlights where my name is

But still sometimes it hurts inside

for what theyve put me through

Sure you think you know me now, but its time to tell the truth

The truth about my life without all the glitz and glamour

I starved myself to death one time, and then I got beat with a hammer

Then when I was only 12 they put me in the slammer

I used to rob and break in houses, I did what I had to do

I didnt give a fuck about life and used to always act a fool

but looking back now on all those things it wasnt all my fault

I had no one to love me ever....so I put my life on a screeching halt

Yet for some odd reason I came out of it alive

Today I am a positive woman all I do is strive

I strive to be a better person I want a better life

So that one day I can settle down and call myself a wife

I dont want to feel this pain no more

This is as much as a human can take

You think Ive had all this luck and have eaten all my cake?

Well think again before you judge someone

You may think that its fun

But look into my deep dark eyes

Youll see the other side.

I been through shit and back and then sometimes back again

The hardest thing in this life is to hold on the best I can

To come this far and be successful from where I was before

I am absolutely filled with gratitude...I love God forever more

If it werent for my inner strength I would have gone long ago

But still I have a few more things to do...a few more years to go

You may look at my pretty pictures and see my pretty face

but behind all of that beauty...lies an empty heart that lost its place

I want to say all of this to you because you are all my friends

I just want to put the truth out there open heart and make amends

Im not afraid to put this out there as only God can judge me

You have your right to say what you want, but that wont go above me

This message is for all of you out there who suffer immensely too

I know that shit gets hard sometimes.....but just hold on and youll get through

Im a fine example so dont think that its a lie

You are the only love I know.....you all make time go by...