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The pain wont just go away, it follows me no matter where I go. I cant hide it, I cant face it. I try to run but its always there.. It forces me to crawl... Forces me down to the ground, to drink all the mud, and dirt, and shit. Untill it slowly fills my heart and soul.. Slowly killing me inside.. Tainted forever..?

"Why did this happen? What went wrong..?" These things I wonder every single day... Same old things still haunts me, and now this... This... Agony and pain. Caused by someone I... I cannot find a word that would describe the feeling for that someone. All confusing and messed up.. All feelings just blurred.. What is happiness.. Joy.. Illusions created by our weak little minds? Are all feelings just..?

I see my self frozen to the ground, in this endless, cold night. Where wolves howl theyr never ending songs and the full moon shines upon everything. There are others... I hear them crying. Or maybe it is just the wind making its way through the trees, tearing the wakest branches and throwing them into the air like seperated limbs... I see something far away, on the other side of the frozen river. It watches me, waits for me.. I can feel its presence, I can hear its voice inside my head, whispering... It wants me. How long can I resist..?