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finally, school is 'over' for this term and I can start all over again
have to find a job, a school in Brno where I'm going to get Bachelor's degree and Finnish language courses
lots of things to do but I can't wait :P

kýta Petííííí za skvělých pár hodin :P Už se těším, až to zvopáknem :D i s Ivet!

The question asked in order to save her life or take it
The answer no avoided death and yes would make it
'?Do you believe in God?'? written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger, and my Sister Cassie pulled it

They didn't love their live so much as to shrink from death
Inspireed in their footsteps we will march ahead
Don't be shocked that people die
Be surprised you're still alive

All heads are bowed in silent reverence
The floor is wet with tears of sorrowful remembrance
The alter is filled with hearts of repentance
Perfect love kills all fear, rejoice in this deliverance

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such a really wonderful song which leads me to think about the words:
"be surprised you're still alive"

I'm so excited and thrilled
yeah on 14-12 I was at amazing gig of IAMX in Prague, it was all so great, so many memories but
like two weeks ago I started to be keen on the movie Twilight more than when I first heard about it
and I got an unpredictible chance to see it and I liked it, yeah, for many people it can be boring, romance, cliché, for me it wasn't
and so I found a book on the internet and stated to read and I'm so into it
like living in my own dream when I'm reading it and it is much better than the movie but anyway I'm glad I've seen the movie first, now I have no problems to see the main characters while I'm reading their story
now I'm in the second book, New Moon and I guess I'm like Bella, forgetting to breath but only when I'm reading it :)

... we start a revolution
:D no I'm not going to see 30stm, just "ordinary" IAMX, can't wait and at the same time I'm nervous and scared like hell
and only 3 days of school and bye bye this year

just normal life, soon Christmas, some of my exams done, most of them ahead of me but this all in January
listening to Chisu and waiting for IAMX gig in Prague which is going to be full of new unheard songs
looking forward New Year's Eve and at the same time I'm so damn scared of it
and just wanting to be a year older and have everything behind me (school, work, possible relationship, Czech)...

I hate depressions and helplessness but I am in very deep depressions right now, or depressions, just You know that typical, why am I here, it's useless, I haven't done anything what I can be proud of, I will never reach it etc... but this time it lasts longer than usually and I'm really in deep sorrow unable to cry and barely to breath :(

and the best med for my state of mind is Iconcrash, I'm listening the whole aftrenoon to those 5 songs and can't get enough, it's like a drug which helps You get through rough time

Kick!!!!!!!! and Speeed!!!!!! are amazing!

quote: "he got completely lost in the chewing gum" ... :D :D :D

oki, yesterday I've been to play billiards and I loved it (I was good in it, and it was my first time) but I'm confused since I got back to school (aka 6/10).
Tom acts like okey, fine, I can't be more than a great friend so I don't wanna be a friend anymore, it seems to me. He's fine, okey, we talk more then ever but still I feel like if I can't be his gf, it's useless for him to have me as a friend. And also another person my friend wanted to give him my phone number, I said fine because he has been to Skandinavia and so we would have something to talk about plus I love to get to know new people but then he told her that if I'm not single, he doesn't want to know me... okey now I feel like I'm not even worth for anyone as a friend even... but it's because those people are from Czech, Czech people have one or two friends and they don't need anyone else and if somebody is taken and they'd like to be just friends with him/her, they rather cancel it like if 'taken' would be a spell. HATE IT! In this Spaniards are much better and I miss it but whatever.
And I need a life but how, when? I dunno, I miss my sweetie in Finland and it's not the best time of the year for me now...+

Just listening: Automatic Eye - Scarecrow (loveee it), they help me a looot right now (or I'd be in depression)

Plus I have been to elections

quote: "I should go and find myself before I go and ruin someone else"

Jenni Vartiainen - reminds me of Grays
IAMX - my time in London
The Rasmus new album Black Roses - walking through autumn Helsinki