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ROCKED!

I wanted Lovex to win and Jann Wilde & Rose Avenue to be in the top 3 but it was all different.
But I don't have to regret 'cos I've voted and maybe it's better that Lovex didn't win... yet, it was I think too much in hurry, to be in Eurovision.
But I voted for Lovex because their song was most catchy I think. Thunderstone was really good, but I didn't like their attitude and their hairstyle lol Just too old for voting audience, I mean those young ladies. For them Lovex was perfect, good looking guys with a good catchy song, this song, the chorus just stucked in my mind but I couldn't get the rest of the words, so it means the song was not so easy to 'read', and that means I wouldn't stop listening to it after 3 times. But Hanna Pakarinen song, it was for me too simple, even though I like some of her songs and her voice.
It was catchy but on the contrary to Lovex Anyone, Anymore, it was too transparent that I would have enough of listening to that song Leave me alone after few times which is not good.
Everything bad has something good in it, so let's see. Lovex will go to Europe anyway, with or without Eurovision and it was a very good advertisement for them anyway.

Hehe what about Finnish Idols? That Ruslanas or what is his name, hihi, have to always smile when see him.

totally rocks, check them if you never done it before!

Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me
cause I can't hold on to anything this good
enough
am I good enough
for you to love me too?

so take care what you ask of me
cause I can't say no

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dedicated to G. J.
except the chorus, it perfectly fits

10/1/06 - forbidden fruit taste the best but don't kill me for it
it was my sweet fault but what's the worst, I don't regret it, SHAME!

but it probably took all my illusions and dreams? ;-(

finally, broken, lonesom, but home, at least few days for studying, how much I hate myself that I didn't study more... my fault and I have to pay for it, but I won't loss/fail one more time, no way, not from such a stupid subject!

and hyvää joulua everyone and happy New Year

Ani

On Monday my mom called me that my bro had a car accident... O.o
I was like somebody would stabbed me in my back (again)... after my shock and very long time she told me he is allright but at night I had a dream about my brother, it was the first time I had a dream with him! We both we're crying about the accident even though he had only light bruises, but still... I realized how much I love him even though I've never told him!

And since today I know what means: heart broken... the pain is so weight and my heart is torn into million of lil pieces just because of... I was walking the streets, sitting in buses with tears in my eyes, almost burst into tears too many times but I couldn't, there were people... oh, that's my weak side, I always think what other thinks about me and then... I miss lots of things, feelings, people...

nevermind, I always just mumblening, why not today but since September I've learnt so many things but still I'm just a kid who doesn't deserve love of someone else than family members and who can't dare to feel what people in my age can feel, 'cos they always say, you're a lil kid, you'll never know what we know, you'll never feel what we feel, you're nothing and stay in your childish shoes forever

~ Like the naked leads the blind
I know IÂ’m selfish IÂ’m unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind
All alone in space and time
ThereÂ’s nothing here but what hereÂ’s mine
Something borrowed something blue ~
~ Ask for answers ~
~ Teenage angst ~
~ Without you I'm nothing ~
~ Sleeping with ghosts ~

Lost in the darkness, hoping for a sign.
Instead there is only silence,
can't you hear my screams?
Never stop hoping,
Need to know where you are,
but one thing is for sure,
you're always in my heart.

I'll find you somewhere.
I'll keep on trying until my dying day.
I just need to know whatever has happened,
the truth will free my soul.

Lost in the darkness, try to find your way home.
I want to embrace you and never let you go.
Almost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul.
Living in agony cause I just do not know
where you are.

Wherever you are, I won't stop searching.
Whatever it takes, I need to know.

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It's my long-time fave song by WT and now, I'm realising that all those songs I used to listen to have the right meaning for me. And this one too only with one difference, the person is not dead and eventhough he's so close, I need to find my way to him...

Koneeseen kadonnutta
Ei voi takaisin saada
Kulutettu, käytetty
Ruokkimaan ympyrää

Luotettu ehkä liikaa
Siihen että aika korjaa
Se minkä vuoksi nähtiin
Niin kovin paljon vaivaa

Että hajalle saatiin
Se mikä kauniisti tarkoitettiin

Kipu kuolee huutamalla
Alastomana lattialla
Miten kauan sitä kestää
Ei, sitä ei voi tietää

Kehen sattuu ja kuinka paljon
Siitä kysymys elämässä kai on
Kun on saavuttu siihen pisteeseen
Ei mikään ole varmaa

Maailman pisimmät tunnit
Niiden otteeseen jää kiinni
Niitä kantaa loppuun asti
Vaikka itse ei aina huomaa

Millainen on se taivas
Jota ei löydetty koskaan
Olen kuullut paljon siitä
Osan jopa omasta suustani

Voi niin pitkälle jaksaa
Kun itselleensä vaan vakuuttaa

Joku meistä on onneton
Palanut mutta tunnoton
Katuva mutta uskoton
Enemmän kuin rauhaton

Periaate on ehdoton
Perustelu on aukoton
Yhtälö ehkä mahdoton
Miten niin muka armoton

Kipu kuolee huutamalla
Alastomana lattialla
Vaan miten kauan sitä kestää
Ei, sitä ei voi tietää

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hope I'll be able to see them 23-2-2007 in Nosturi !!!!