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I can't believe my eyes. After more than two months this is gonna be the first time that I'm not going to Tampere for the whole week. But due to Saturday's work it's no wonder and actually better. I need some real rest. The past months have been exhausting. I don't say that a week will fix it, but it will help. And I need to finish the book by the 15th.

I'm gonna dance again, hiiiii!! :-)
It's not in Tre, but OK, at least it's close.. And not exactly what I was looking for, but looks interesting, too. But the point is that I was missing dancing so much! I guess the language course is ending at probably the same time as the dancing course.. Hmm.. Maybe after that I can try to find something else.. Or some real job.. But I guess not much opportunities will be there with my Finnish.. Well, we'll see..

It's cold!! Two nights ago -20, yesterday -15 and today -10 is just too cold for me. I thought I was crazy when I looked at the temperature-meter on Friday night and it showed -20, seriously.. Eeeeeeh, I want summer now!! Or at least I want to jump in time to two weeks later time. Or three weeks in ideal case. I feel like wasting time and missing things.
And yes, I'm still in Finland. And I will be here for a pretty long time.

I'm feeling like wasting time now. I need to speak, speak, speak. One or two sentences are enough but they need to be said. As soon as possible.

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you seem to have forgotten the words."

Beautiful and true.

Alright, so in the end I have actually overestimated the boss at MS. I expected that he won't like the report, but then I thought that I would be supposed to rewrite it MYSELF, not that he would change it in such a way that a different story comes out!! F*ck that. I didn't expect that within the "correction" of the article he'd turn my sentences in such a way that they get a totally different meaning, leave out half of the paragraphs, leave out the whole ending of the report and generally leave half of my thoughts out. It pisses me off, but I don't have enough strength to argue about that. And I don't believe he'd listen to me anyway.. I wrote it in the same way as I always used to write gig reports. And based on my gig reports I got this job, so why is a similar one suddenly all fucked up?? I should let go.
It's always like that- if someone doesn't understand and doesn't bother themselves to ask what I meant and simply claims me wrong, I lose all my will to explain and just walk away. I guess it would be better for me to really leave MS. If it's just among a few people, I don't have to give a sh*t. But this is a different case, here I "present myself" on a popular website with something I didn't write and don't like. They make grammar mistakes in the articles, they don't respect the way I put my thoughts there. And they make factic mistakes. Since the band KYPCK was formed in 1999, the name simply can't refer to the submarine tragedy in 2000. That's why I wrote "the name reminds me of", not "the name refers to", that's f*cking wrong!!
I'm still only waiting for spring and for the tours. At this point it's the only thing that is worth staying there for. I don't give a sh*t about MS, I don't wanna be there, but more than this I want to get some decent promotion for the guys. Or at least try for it.
Which has reminded me that I wanted to apply for a job at Rockshock. Hopefully they won't be so narrowminded and will be interested in new bands.

Wittu. Perfect beginning of the year, what's going wrong next?

I'm really very very VERY tired.. Why do I have to be the one who always stays awake when the others fall asleep? It's not that I'm complaining about someone else- I'm complaining about myself: I just won't sleep if I know the others are tired and need it. I need it, too, but I will still stay somehow awake (something I called "standby state" last night- basically sleeping with the eyes open). It's the feeling that I have to watch out while the others sleep. Even now when I'm sitting here in the hotel room (over the last two nights slept some 4 hours in total, with the two ngihts and days before spent in stress of leaving and sleepign 4 hours/day) and I could just close my eyes for a second and fall asleep- while mum is sleeping I just won't go to sleep. I feel I must stay awake and and wake her up so that we don't miss the gig tonight..
..and the eyelids are so heavy..
That was the reason why I played the billiard so badly last night- I was so tired that I couldn't hold the billiard cue tight enough to keep it in direction. 2 in the morning, having drunk three coffees within 3 hours (considering the fact that I usually don't drink coffee at all), tired as hell.. Knowing I was not going to sleep for another two nights. That was a really deep level of desperation..
I can't even keep on writing any more.. So then just a shower, then the gig (have to stay concentrated because of the press pass- if I didn't have to write a report about it, I wouldn't have to give a sh*t) and then.. I will see.. Probably bed, bed, BED! And no, I don't wanna go and see the host family wih mum tomorrow!! I don't care!! I just wanna have a rest, please.. :-(

Hiiiiiiii, good news of the day:

Manzana supporting Entwine at Klubi/Tre!! :-)

OK, apart from this, what gets me a bit depressed is the fact that I probably won't be able to see Lovex at On The Rocks (or where in Hki they're playing). And I'm actually finding out that I'm even missing White Flame on stage.. I'm really looking forward to the acoustic gig at Kustaa.

I guess I'll hide my age here on IRC. It's frustrating to see how I'm growing old.. :D But still doorkeepers and people like that won't even believe I'm over 18.. :-/

Alright, I have definitely underestimated the MS leadership. I've got the press pass. Hiiiiiiiii :D
I'm totally happy. Now I can get my 37e back. Which makes a hell of a difference.
A bad thing is that the only hostel in Tre that I have been able to reach is fully booked. I'll try the other two on the phone tomorrow. I don't like talking on the phone, but what can I do then.. Mum suggests we can try just to come there and ask for a free room, but I'm not sure. I don't give anything for two phone calls (OK, except for a lot of money, but they're not mine, so whatever.. Should it be used or left to expire?). I will be seriously in a deep sh*t when I find out that the other hostels are full, too, then I don't know what I will do.. I'll have to see. Of course, I can always ask the host family if we can stay there one night more (it would be far cheaper than the hostel), but I wouldn't like that. It's uncomfortable and I would feel like bothering them..
Alright. Please, someone slap me now. I will only take the phone numbers and leave everything for tomorrow. First I will sort this out and THEN if it doesn't work out, I will be thinking about something else.
I'm looking forward to meeting Simča tomorrow. I haven't seen her for months. And again there will be a lot of Finlandia.. Actually Koskenkorva as well, for a change from last year (pre-Christmas party when 2 bottles of vodka went to three people and I was drunk like a fish). But it was great x)
And I have a lot of music for her, I have to burn it on something.. And since the DVD maker is out of service, I guess it will take several CD's. Whatever, there are plenty of them at home. I'd only need to get the DVD maker run again, because I need to get all the videos and stuff out of my laptop, it's getting full..
Stop for now. If I let my thoughts out, I'd have to write a roman here, which I don't want.