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Cause you know, it's kinda killing me.

First I thought it's normal for me to be afraid,
afraid of this, but I'm getting tired of being scared.
I'm almost numb by this fear, and I don't like it anymore.

I don't want to cry anymore,
just cause I'm not sure about this.
How am I supposed to trust,
when you can't even say
that you'll be here tomorrow.

I don't need a promise,
I just want you to say,
that you want this to last,
as much as I do.

I don't need you to say,
that you'll be here always, all ways,
I don't want you to tell me this will last forever.
I just need to hear, that you care.

I need to hear, that you wanna be here.
The only thing that matters to me,
is to know how you feel.
I want you to be happy,
and I hope that I can make you happy.

I just gotta know, I'm enough right now,
and tomorrow, you won't change your mind
in a blink of an eye.

(c) Pejkkis

Once again I woke up in the middle of the night.
It wasn't a nightmare, just a bad feeling.
Somethings creeping.

I spend some time with myself and I.
I noticed some weird things.
It seems like I'm building a shield.
Don't know why, but it makes me feel safer,
when I know, I'm behind my own walls.

I'm just trying to figure,
what am I so scared?
What is it, that makes me feel so fragile?
I know lot of things that freaks me out,
makes me wanna scream from fear.
But this is new, 'cause I don't quite know,
what it is, that I'm so scared.

I gotta admit,
I made some changes to my life.
And so far, I liked them.
But it's new, it could be the thing,
but I doubt that.

But the walls are closing,
I'm building a shield again.
Don't know why I'm trying to make it harder than stone,
when I should know, I don't need to do that.
I should know that I can trust.
I shouldn't be so scared of needing someone.

And once again, I won't let it show.
I use to say, I never leave my heart open.
I think I did that, long ago,
and now I'm building a wall to protect it.
Even when I know, it won't make it any easier.

(c) Pejkkis

It kinda hit me today,
when I thought that what if,
it would happen again.
What if I'd see a day again,
when you're not with me anymore.

I don't know if I could live a day without you,
I can't even stand the thought that you would leave.
That's when it hit me, you're kinda too close.

You can easily hurt me, break me down, make me cry.
'Cuz I've said it already, there ain't nothing, nothing,
I won't do for you, and that kinda freaks me out.

I'm not use to being this vulnerable,
Weird how just the thought that something could happen to you,
makes me cry.
Weird, how I miss you even when it's only been 5 minutes since we last saw each other.

It's kinda hard to explain,
but I've never been this scared,
and it's only because I know,
you could break me down with one word.

But when I think all the time I've spend with you,
I think I've never been happier.
Everything I do, feels so empty without you.
Other people, don't make as happy as you.

I don't know how you did it,
but you kinda stole my heart.
But since you have it,
I hope you take good care of it,
and please, I'm beggin' don't break it.

(c) Pejkkis

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It's not news if I say,
I'd feel a lot better if you were still here.

You use to see things differently,
You use to hold me and listen while I was trying to figure out my life.

Now that I don't have you here,
holding me, keeping me together.
It feels too hard to figure what I wanna do with my life.

Why should I make plans,
when everytime that I've tried that,
everything just falls apart.

Just like yesterday,
it was supposed to be about us.
But you're not here anymore.

If I could just have 10 more minutes with you,
I'd feel differently about this.
I'd see things differently.

(c) Pejkkis

I didn't know, that this would feel so weird.
We had all these things we would do,
when this day comes.
And now the day is finally here,
but without you, it's not so special anymore.

Can't quite explane it, but I guess I'm just trying to say I miss you.
I hope you're proud of me.

Now I have new plans for this day,
a different kinda plans.
But it's just because you're not here anymore,
I hope you know, I'm not ever ever letting you go.
I use to think about you everyday, I still do that,
but now I can smile while I'm thinking about you.
Cause I know that if there's a better place up there,
you're there, watching over me.

I hope you can hear me, when I say, I miss you very very much.


(c) Pejkkis

I think I've never been happier,
but still everything feels so fragile.

I know, you know how I think nothing can last forever,
but i'd really really like you to tell me that this will.
I don't care if it's a lie, I really don't.
But right now, I just need to know that you'll be here,
next to me , holding my hand tomorrow.

It's scary, 'cuz I realised today how much I need you here.
It's hard enough for me to admit that I need my friends,
but now I probably should tell you what you mean to me.

But everytime I try to do that,
the three little words gets lost in my head.

Maybe tomorrow, I can pull myself together,
just to tell you these things.


(c) Pejkkis

Didn't quite knew how strong I felt for you.
I saw you today, and it just chocked me
'cause I realised the last time I saw you,
it's been like two days but it's feels like forever.

Didn't quite knew I can miss someone this way.
I don't miss the things you say,
I don't miss the things you do,
I miss you, when you're too far away.

Not the things you do or say,
I miss the one you are.
It's not the same if it's not you.
'cause you're the one that I want to be with.
I'm sorry I don't quite know how to tell these things to you.
This feels so strong, but at the same time everything is so fragile.

I'd like you to hold my hand,
just for 10 seconds as my world stops.
My time stops, as I look into your eyes.
Somehow, I can't find the words to tell you all of this.

But still it feels like forever,
when you're further away from me.
I promise, let me hold your hand, just a minute.
Let me look at your eyes,
kiss you and I can try to tell this to you.

Before this, all those things felt right,
but now I realise,
before I found you, I didn't know what real ment.
And now I found those three little words,
but I'm afraid to say those to you,
what if you don't feel the same?


(c) Pejkkis

If I could find the words.
If I could find a way to explain this,
you know I would.

I'm tryin' so hard to find a way,
to find a way to make things right.
I just wanna make this right again.

I hope we're gonna get trough this.
Without you, there would never ever be me.

Don't let me go now,
you got a hold of me so please,
I'm asking you.
Do not give up on me.

There's a million things I could say,
but I can't take the pain away.

I'll do anything to make this right,
you know I would.
I need you here.
I miss you.

Remember when you said,
there's nothing we can't talk trough?
Nothing that could break this friendship?

Please tell me that it was true.
Tell me that we can find some way
to get trough this.

' Cuz I'm so sorry.
And I miss you like you'll never know.
If I never told you,
this is tearing me apart.

(c) Pejkkis

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