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Olen katsonut taivaille niin kauan.
Yksin istunut luona sinun haudan.
Tuntenut kaipuuta ja kipua.
Mikset ottanut mukaasi minua.

En koskaan tiennyt tämän päättyvän.
Kanssasi olisin jakanut tämän elämän.
Kutsun luokseni kuoleman.
Jos odotat minua rajoilla tuonelan.

On helppoa unohtaa asioita joita ei ole.
Vaikea hyväksyä asioita joita ei tule.
Jospa voisin takaisin ajassa palata.
Katsoa pois ja luotasi karata.

Rakastit minua kuin minä sinua.
Vaan kaiken jälkeen saan vain kitua.
Kun suru täytti sydämeni.
Niin minäkin päätin elämäni.


c. Joni K. 09.12.2007

Carry On


Today I know, I lost the game
I carry pieces of my life, all that still remains
I used to have a home, place to hide and be alone
But not anymore hun, not anymore

I loved to see that you were weak and frail
And how you cried and said that youÂ’re afraid
I could not care less. I knew it was wrong
But tell me hun, when did you become so strong?

This time I wonÂ’t fail, I wonÂ’t give up
Flame is still burning inside, untill IÂ’m done
This time I wonÂ’t fade, I wonÂ’t mess up
So IÂ’ll still carry on, IÂ’ll carry on

Today let me go, and if you do
I know I canÂ’t live without you
So do it now, make your move
It will end anyway, very soon

Today I know, that everything is gone
For me itÂ’s hard to say, who did won
Flame is not burning, and IÂ’m done
YouÂ’ll always be my only one

So please carry on hun, please carry on


C. Joni K. 03.12.2007

There is days, when world seems to be so frail
When all beautiful things are solid and lame
It might take time to heal, but I know
How much it hurts to let my life fade and go

We all did our sacrifice to get what we want
I have done it more than twice, but got something? NoÂ…
Love, happiness, passion, joy
Mistake, confusion, depression, annoy
Pain, rope, suicide, best solution
Eternity, peace, light, redemption

I never wanted to hurt any of them
But IÂ’m the one that decide when this ends
Relationship, friends, or another crap
I can live my days without that
ItÂ’s better for me and them
That I donÂ’t bother anyone
ItÂ’s good to be lonely and gone
Things, canÂ’t be undone


c. Joni K 13.11.2007

So hard to say, am I alright
Sometimes it feels like IÂ’m lost from inside
Like, words are leaking from my mouth, like blood from veins
Or, feeling sleepy, when itÂ’s still not night
But today I feel fine
When youÂ’re here by my side

So hard to say, am I alright
Sometimes it feels like IÂ’m dying from inside
If you can read scars from my heart
I think you know how hard itÂ’s for me to show love
But today I donÂ’t feel blind
When youÂ’re here to be my guide

I always wanted to have better life
But now when youÂ’re here, my dream is alive
I was born in darkness, in endless night
Now IÂ’m saved, and I can see the light
This might happen only once in lifetime
To be loved by one of your kind

Today I feel alright
And glad to have you here by my side



C. Joni. K 05.11.2007 – 23:30

I walk to forest, alone and afraid
I know they will not follow
I keep my promise that I made
This forest will be my grave
This forest will whisper my name
My portal, to eternity

All colors they escape and dies
Blood in my veins runs out untill IÂ’m dry
I knew this was not my time
I never wanted to be part of this life
For me itÂ’s better to live and let die
As long youÂ’re the one that decide
Live with your freedom, and let me get mine

Angel of my life
Lead me to the other side


C. Joni k. da Nonno (nopea tekaisu jälleen)

Hate me if you must, but do it right.
Rape me if you want, but do it twice.
Cheat me if you want, but use both dices.
Wait me if you like, but not if you're wise.

Do you think I give a damn?
Run away when you still can.
Feel no mercy, do as you like
But remember this, you're not in my life.

I hate you like never before, and I do it very right.
I rape your mind, and I can do it more than twice.
I cheat you more than others, without any dices.
I wait you to become douple more wise.

Do you think I give a damn?
Or I would feel for you?
I feel no mercy, I do what is right and true.
And remeber this, my life is not for you.


C. Joni K. (jälleen 10min mielen oksennus)

Another sad day pass by
All alone I face those in front line
I curse my weakness, my mind
And that still my promises keeps me bind

I try to turn back, and I really should
But I keep asking, how she could?
I'm not afraid, not anymore
If my destiny is now to die, then I'll do

Not like this, please, not like this

My heart is mortally wounded
It will never be healed again
I close my eyes for a moment
But I'll never open em again

I wonder, when I'm gone
Do they forgive me things I've done
Do they miss me, do they cry for me
Or understand that I'm finaly free


C. Joni K

This fear has been holding me for years
Crying would help, but I've no more tears
This life has been raping me too many times
Everything I do is worthless sacrifice

Ok, ok, now it's your turn
Let me see how your dreams will burn
I let you play that role for a while
Then it's time for me and you to die

Ou my only one, I love you so
But now you're telling me; no.
All my wishes, all my prays
Turned to lies in my head

I hate myself, I never did anything right
Once again they ruined my life
I don't have another chance
And I'll never get another chance
I'll never be fine
For me to live is like drinking forbidden wine

And then it's time for me and you, to die

Sometimes I don't know what life is about,
sometimes I do.
If someone could tell me the answer,
I'd tell it to you too.
But no hope for it,
no hope at all.
No chance for me,
so I let it go

If I could be your summer rain,
wash away all your pains
If I could be your candle flame,
lead you back to path you seek
If you need someone to take care,
let it be me, let it be me.

Sometimes I don't know what love is about,
sometimes I do.
If someone could show me that,
I hope it would be you.
But no hope for it,
no hope at all.
No chance for me,
so let my heart go

If I could be your hope,
that keeps you carry on
If I could be your goal,
something you could aim for
If you need someone to take care
please, let it be me, let it be me.

Sometimes I don't know what life is about,
sometimes I do.
If someone could tell me the answer,
I'd tell it to you too.
But no hope for it,
no hope for me.
I wish that I could be
If I could be..


C. Joni Kallioinen

(Tekaistu vajaan varttiin)

I always knew that you lied to me
All those words, how fine things could be
So tell me now, and tell me true
Am I still something for you?

Bottle of wine helped you more than I ever did
Truth was for me another hit
Let me tell, what you really are
Just another liar, without heart

But now, I think I know
Yes I do

Your feelings are for the one, who just takes you
Soon youÂ’re left again, then he really hates you
If you crawl back to me, I bet you do
Then is my turn to say, who hell are you

So the people hear me say
Spoil your mates, make ‘em pay
This world is for living, love is for weak
Drink your head, stay drunk for weeks

Truth is for sale, but I give it for free
There was a chance, for you and me
But now I know
Yes, now I do
IÂ’m better without you


C. Joni Kallioinen