You believe in goddess of faith and goddess of destiny, you believe you can't affect anything that they haven't decided for you. Yet you ignore the wind, yet you walk your own way. You look for the one. Why is it that you fight against your own beliefs. If you believe and have faith in the 2 goddess'. Why can't you just walk where the wind leads you. When will you stop fighting. When will you truly believe in your own beliefs. Stop being such bullhead and let them do their work you so believe in. Even if giving up makes you sad. Let them cheer you up then. Follow the wind for exchange.