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Parhaimmassa tapauksessa sunnuntaihin asti :3

Ja nyt sitten odottelemaan kouluilta vastauksia, saatana ku säikähin ku tuli tekstiviesti ilmotuski viel perässä, että haku onnistunu.
Sydän pomppas kurkkuu, "KUKA HELV TÄHÄ AIKAA YÖSTÄ?! O_o*??"

Kweh~

Kun oon yksin niin huomaan vähän väliä vihelteleväni näitä saatanan kappaleita. Erityisesti "Yankee Doodle" lähtee hyvin rullaamaa ilman mitää syytä >,<



0:00 "America"
1:08 "Battle Hymn of the Republic"
1:38 "Halls of Montezuma"
2:20 "Dixie"
3:08 "Hail, Columbia"
4:18 "Stars and Stripes Forever"
5:41 "The Washington Post"
6:37 "Yankee Doodle"

Jyväskylä > Mikkeli > Lahti > Kouvola > Hamina

Olin Lahden osalta alunperin, että viimeinen hakutoive... Savonlinna pyöreät 0 joten tiputan sen nyt sitten poies listaltani.

Tää on salaliitto mie sanon. Mikkeliä ajattelin ensimmäiseksi toiveeksi. Päätin kuitenkin Jyväskylän ja Mikkelin välillä heittää kolikolla. Keski-Suomen metsolla ja kahen euron kolikon kotkalla näköjään salaliitto...

Joten Jyväskylä ensimmäiseksi ja Mikkeli kakkoseksi, ja sitten vielä neljännes vuosi tulosten odottelua. Yaaaayyyy..! Meh~

Päätös pohjautuu: kyselyyni

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin'
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'cause from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I see you n' every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to em n' everyday
I regret saying those things 'cause now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it in without letting you
(Know)
I let you go so get away from
(Me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it in without letting you
(Know)
I let you go

(And then you've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)
(I've let myself become you)
(I've let myself become)
(lost inside these thoughts of you)
(giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static, and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react
Even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back

It's true
The way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me

I'm with you
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes

I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor, the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend that the past isn't real
Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react
Even though you're close to me
You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back

It's true
The way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me

I'm with you
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes

No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you

With you
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
With you
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes
With you
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
With you
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes





Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm in disbelief, I didn't know
Somehow I need you to go

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I'm in disbelief, I didn't know
Somehow I need to be alone

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay

I don't need you anymore, don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day, of you wasting me away
I don't need you anymore, I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day, of you wasting me away
(With no apologies)

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back control)
Don't stay
Don't stay
Don't stay

Kiitos "nopean kehityksen", syyttäkää vaan itseänne corporaatiot

______________________________________________________

No matter how I want to tear the memories apart
No matter how I slice and dice
No matter how I rip them to pieces
No matter how I want to burn them
No matter how I want to forget what it was

Why do I still remember so strong
Why do the memories still burst out of nowhere
Why do the memories haunt me from my heart
Why even the bits of ashes, their sparkle against the light remind me

I deny everything because it didn't work out
I deny everything because it wasn't forever
I deny everything because I chose to
I chose to forget
I chose to lock it up
I chose to never try again

I want it all to burn because the memories of what was then hurts more than to just wait for tomorrow
It is better to forget something if it was so important
Does this mean it was real afterall?
If it was real... Why didn't it last...

I was able to lock up my feelings once
All the memories in to one small box and lock it up somewhere
Why can't I do it now too
Because these were greater than anything before?
Because it atleast felt 99,99% real?
Tired... So tired... Of remembering... The lost love... A love that was supposedly true... But why didn't it last... Why do I think of it now when it has all been gone for half an year...

Goddesses... I hate how you work... I can imagine you laughing your asses off... It's not... funny...
since... it was all... for nothing...
________________________________________________________

Taas tää outo tunne alko kalvaa mua.

Ootan innolla ihan sikana jotain puhelua.

En ymmärrä.

Ei kellää oo mulle mitää syytä illalla/yöllä ruveta soittelee.

Mut se tuntuu.

Hölmö tunne.

Meh~

Päivä meni paremmin kuin luulinkaan. Ennen loppuratkaisua MP3 soittimeni päätti päräyttää LostProphets - Streets of nowhere
Sanomana tietenkin everything is gonna be alright.
Ja näinhän siinä kävikin kuolinpesän asioita selvitellessä. :3
Juoksentelin pitkin LPR jotain 30+ km edestä, mutta oli se sen arvosta.

Viimeyö oli tosin mitä mielenkiintosin. Enne suihkua vähän alko masentaa. Sitten suihkussa kerrankin! TULI OIKEIN KUUMAA VETTÄ! Suurinpiirtein kikseissä ja ekstaasissa kun sain kerranki olla 20 minuuttia tulivedessä. (Vähän unohuin sinne) Tuntu oikein hyvältäääh~