IRC-Galleria

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong

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So confused, so dead, so hollow.
I should be happy to be a nobody.
Nothing.
To belong nowhere.
The lust for it.
To be something.
To belong somewhere.
It's programmed inside every living organism.
No one can escape it.
This way.
Life is nothing but a torture room.
Yet I see the light.
Or think it exists.
Yet I want to turn away from it.
Make the choice of everlasting peace.
May my death make haste then.
Before I hit the ground.
Reap me midst the fall.
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Have I
Worked this soul too hard
Strained these arms to far
Fooled myself to think I was superior
I am inferior
And have I forced myself to think I fight this on my own
I'm all alone

Been loyal to the blind
Had friends that were not mine
I failed to see the disease before it created distance
Seeds sown when we were young
Gave birth to frozen lungs that breathe to exhale the illness

We were seduced by the phantom
Closed our eyes despite the symptoms
The apparition made us bleed like open wounds
It took us from awake to simple fools

Been loyal to the blind
Had friends that were not mine
I failed to see the disease before it created distance
Seeds sown when we were young
Gave birth to frozen lungs that breathe to exhale the illness

We have come to nothing
And we belong to freedom
We are hollow
But we belong to nothing

Been loyal to the blind
Had friends that were not mine
I failed to see the disease before it created distance
Seeds sown when we were young
Gave birth to frozen lungs that breathe to exhale the illness

3.8 saa tietää sitten seuraavan kerran. Yippee. Varasijoille pääsin. *sigh*
No jaa, yhteishaussa lisää hakuja.

Bullet Meal tested, works like a dream.

Jos nyt jättäis yökukkuilun vähäks aikaa.

Welcome the void
Gates of hell are to open
For now it is the moon ensemble
That will play the silent tune
In honor of the void

Silent

As I hear nothing
I see nothing
Only the feeling of existing
Total blackout

Silent

1st time is life
2nd time confirms
3rd time is idiocity
4th time means fumbduck

*sigh*

kiivas ja kopea
aina liikkeissä nopea
olla liehuva liputus
olla voittojen niputus

ehdi ei katua
kun on tehtävä latua
olla viimaa ja vetoa
olla liukkaampi petoa

aikaista matoa
jahdataan kuin perikatoa
olla tiukka ja kätevä
olla huikean pätevä

puhu mitä puhut
mut juoksemista älä lopeta
(vaikka suunta puuttuu)
sano mitä sanot
ei historia meitä opeta
(tuskin reitti muuttuu)

kostea lakana
minä piiskattu pakana
olen rannaton soutaja
olen linnuton noutaja

valvojan vapina
ihmisenpyörästä rapina
olla riippuva liputus
olla vuotava tiputus

puhu mitä puhut
mut juoksemista älä lopeta
(vaikka suunta puuttuu)
sano mitä sanot
ei historia meitä opeta
(tuskin reitti muuttuu)

kerää minut talteen
vie täältä pois
palaseni talteen
siivoa pois
kerää minut talteen
vie täältä pois

puhu mitä puhut
mut juoksemista älä lopeta
(vaikka suunta puuttuu)
sano mitä sanot
ei historia meitä opeta
(tuskin reitti muuttuu)

ole kuka olet
mut juoksemista älä lopeta
sano mitä sanot
ei historia meitä opeta

What's the point when other side has already given up? To me it's like shooting innocent people with cannoballs.



Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace

Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared

I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

[bridge]
Goddddddd!!!!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery
[end bridge]

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

If this machine doesn't stop, what will you do if it never goes out
Never goes out of season

It never stops as it turns, there ain't no passion, yet it burns
Introducing my prison

Losing myself in this place, soon I'm gone without a trace
Freed with that final incision

Look my heart it's a bird, it needs to sing and to be heard
Not this clockwork precision

And the machine grows idiotic
Who's gonna be its ingenious critic

Everybody loves the perfect solution
To beat the odds against the poorest possible substitution
What you see is never what you're gonna get
Everybody's playing revolution roulette

Leaves you no arguments to trade, you can try the key or you can wait
But the lock will not open

So you're left with sanity to lose, cos the machine is a ruse
Another invention to rule them

It's like a fistful of snake eyes, a hand grenade with bye byes
Like a million spent on nothing

It's kinda like a pick in their lock, when you never went "knock knock, hello, anybody home? I'm coming in".
With a touch of foreboding

And the machine grows parasitic
Who's gonna critisize the good critic

Everybody loves...

Everybody has the perfect solution
It's just hard to resist the sweet seduction
There ain't no trick to winning double what you bet
Welcome to revolution roulette