IRC-Galleria

I'm hanging on a thread
So much in me feels sick but I only want
To confront
What's meant for me with a hint of dignity

Dreadful to see
A life lived as a slave for the industry
Smothered fantasies
Gone down the drain along with the poison running through the vein

I've felt the temptation
Pleasure gained by addiction
But I won't trade my pride for feeling good
I'll suffer just as much as I need to

(Chorus)
I'm not the one who's waiting for you
I won't give in, I belong to no one
I am not the one with a guilty conscience
But is it wrong to belong to no one

I learned the hard way
To appreciate myself too much to love
Unconditionally
But so much control has left a hole in me

Suspicions wear me down
I will never be completely free
I'm a servant
Of my obsession to question everything

I've felt the temptation
Happiness gained by illusions
But I won't deceive my mind with substitutes
I'll rather grow as much as I need to

(Chorus)

In the midst of chaos
On these decadent streets
I stand at the crossroads
Should I pretend or surrender?



Dying smiling faces, I
I see tears in joyful eyes
Silent screams carrying the sounds of bliss

There is no leap of faith
The choice ain't yours to make
For your mind can't own the purpose of soul

Under the ground I fly
To hide from the brilliant sky
Under my armor I cry

Doing it for the one who saved your life, I've done it all
Doing it for the one who stole your life
It all comes down, it all blows up
When I love the most I lose my touch
When I live the most I've already given up

Divine insanity
Sweetness in brutality
Chaos in the cradle of lost reality

I gave up everything
To find the soul within
Only to see the wonders of Nothing

Divine insanity
How it all could be
How it all should be

Another stupid crybaby night *sigh*



I see a thousand corridors
And I’ve walked through them all
Nowhere an open door

I’m imprisoned by my love
Who is chained by the fears
Affection turned into tears

There’s a part of me that just won’t take the pain
There’s a part of me that wants to burst into flames
And break all the chains

Take a shot
Of my poisonous blood
I’ve got a fever and it won’t drop
As long as you’re in my life

Take a shot
Of my poisonous blood
I’m a fever, I’ll burn you up
So you’d better spit me out of your life

I’m the virus that tears you apart
The disease that sucks the life
Out of your faith heart

You need distance from me
Rush to the arms of solitude
It’s the only cure

There’s a part of me that just won’t take the pain
There’s a part of me that wants to burst into flames
And break all the chains

Take a shot
Of my poisonous blood
I’ve got a fever and it won’t drop
As long as you’re in my life

Take a shot
Of my poisonous blood
I’m a fever, I’ll burn you up
So you’d better spit me out of your life

Cut me out of your life
I wanna see
You free of all the hurt that I have caused you

(Take a shot!)
(Shot!)
Of my poisonous blood
I’ve got a fever and it won’t drop
As long as you’re in my life

Take a shot
Of my poisonous blood
I’m a fever, I’ll burn you up
So you’d better spit me out of your life
Spit me out of your life
Spit me out of your life
Spit me out of your life
Spit me out of your life



I've been running to let go
I've been running away from home
My knees no longer hold
But I can't stop

It's still too easy to run

Time and Time again you fade away
And I wonder how you
Still manage to beat the hell out of me
Time and Time again you seem to fail
But it seems that you can
Still manage to crush my self-esteem

I'm hoping when I'm gone
You realize I'm not strong
That I would suffocate my will to play along
And I wish you'd understand
I've sacrificed all I can

To share my soul with you

Time and Time again you fade away
And I wonder how you
Still manage to beat the hell out of me
Time and Time again you seem to fail
But it seems that you can
Still manage to crush my self-esteem

I got lost in fire
I tried to get away
But the flames grew higher
Too high for me

Time and Time again you fade away
And I wonder how you
Still manage to beat the hell out of me
Time and Time again you seem to fail
But it seems that you can
Still manage to crush my self-esteem

Time and Time
Time and Time
Time and Time again
Still manage to beat the hell out of me
Yeah
yeah
Still manage to crush my self-esteem

Ni mitä niitä Juhannus yön taikoja oli?
Illalla nyrkkirysyssä menetetty hammas tyynyn alle ni näkee tulevan vaimonsa?

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How do you break it?
What you can't see.
What you can't feel.
What you can't sense.
Yet it is there.
How do you tear it down?
How do you bypass it?
How do you circle around it?

As our sun goes down
I hear your voice is calling me
And I wonder where you are

As the rain falls down
The clouds they slowly disappear
Still I wonder where you are

As I rise again
I embrace the sun
And I'm looking out across the burning sky

As I rise again
I can feel you near
I'm floating to the place where I belong

As I rise again
I embrace the sun
And I'm looking out across the burning sky

As I rise again
I can feel you near
I'm floating to the place where I belong

As I rise again
I will be frozen here with you
Ohh yea

If I lose my mind
And if I start to lose control
Will you wonder where I am?

Till the end of time
I will be frozen here with you
Still you wonder where I am

As I rise again
I embrace the sun
And I'm looking out across the burning sky

As I rise again
I can feel you near
I'm floating to the place where I belong

As I rise again
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~Ainut mikä miu musiikeissa on. Vaikuttaa vaan siltä, etten koskaan pääse alotuspaikasta mihinkää. Meh~

Memorizu, *sigh*~



Onpa harvinaisen epämasis päivä. These days have been gone so long I already forgot how they feel.

Kävin työvoiman palvelukeskuksessa. Siinä vaiheessa kun sanoivat, että "Olisko tääl hautuumail sit? Ei ainakaa Joutsenos, mut Lappe" *WOUUUUWOUUUUuuuUUUuuuUUUuuuUUUUUUUUUU!!!!* *UUUUUuuuUUUUUYYYUUUUUYYUUUUUuuuUUU!!!!* Alko koirat ulvoo jossai lähistöl. Kuulu sisälle selkeesti.

Sit takasin kotia päi. Hyvä kun alakoulun parkkipaikalle ja alakentälle vievältä tieltä tulee ensin punainen auto. Ajattelin, että nyt menen. Pyöräni eturengas ku osu ylitysviivoille niin vedin jarrut pohjaa. Oikea korva oli oikeessa. Hiljaa tuli Audi. Lujaa tuli Audi. Neiti/rouva/mikälie katto vähän säikähtäneesti ratissa vasemmalle puolellee jossa minä pyörän selässä katsoin takasin hölmöllä hymyllä.

OoooOohhhh...
All 3 at war again.
Nothing but a depressive headache.
I wish I could fuse them together inside my head like this body is a vessel to them.

Is there perfect?
Is there imperfect?
Is imperfect perfect?
Is the perfect totally imperfect?

Someone has to be the right, right?
Someone who has the spirit to prove all thoughts wrong.

I'm nothing but a jester of Faith, Destiny and Fortune.
They laugh at my misery from the void.
I only want peace.

~AC of unknown origin detected.
9-Ball: Destroy... Destroy..! DESTROY!~

Hands and fingers, arms and neck
For the promise to find out
What it is all about
It's already down to heads or tails

Moira did belief in virtue and honesty but
You know innocence breaks so easily

So you can't choose it's not on you to know what's right
Everything is set for the final fight

Deep inside you know it's not just black or white
You are well prepared for the final fight

Every day is judged by the framework
Of your certain point of view

Life is change just like the withering truth

Truth is just a philosophic term
That doesnÂ’t serve the ways of life

Those who want to know bout life must
Find the trace of truth

I'm tired, would you take me home
Where I can rest in your arms
I don't need to make amends
But the streets where you take me home
Recall my paranoid circus of formative years

Playback life and anabolic arguments instead
Maybe that's it all about
It's already down to heads or tails

So she killed herself on a lovely morning
And the rising sun smiled in her numbly eyes

So please show me where the truth is in that sweet tale
You have to admit, it's nothing but a bale

Everything has failed if you can't see what's bright
What you see out there is just what you see inside

Reality is nothing than the register
Of crimes of a humankind

Now you agree it's up to us to do the what?s right

Right comes along with fortune
But fortune is a furtive friend indeed

You can only find the key of fortune in yourself

I'm tired, would you take me home
Where I can rest in your arms
I don't need to make amends
But the streets where you take me home
Recall my paranoid circus of formative years
Of formative years
I'm so tired

Why should I not?
I want a fantasy.
If it is an impossibility and takes infinity so be it.
One was already ages ago close to total control over my 3 sides.
Then there's the 4th which only appears upon great danger.
Only a witch can control all 3 sides.
There was one almost, why there wouldn't be someone else capable too.

I reach my hand for the stars.
Only to burn it over and over again.
Why do you ask?
Only imperfection is perfection.
Or maybe I'm just a masochist.

My romantic dream?
A sorceress' knight.