When it hits it hits
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I've been traveling for so long
So lost till I stumbled upon
Two roads in front of me
I had to take my time
To the right I could see a church
I took a step in that direction first
But to the left there was a watering hole
Where they were whiskey drunk
And now that's where I wanna pray
The fun down here goes on and on
If I was perfect
Then this would be easy
Either road's plausible
On both I could drown
I walk through the center
With no rules to guide me
I realize it's difficult
But now I can see
There's gotta be another way to go
A way that's much more feasible
A combination of all these lives
A central path without choosing a side
I make decisions one at a time
And no I never say I'm always right
I'm confident that when I stand on my own
You'll see the truest form of a man
When I'm shining through
So far down here, just holding on
If I was perfect
Then this would be easy
Either road's plausible
On both I could drown
I walk through the center
With no rules to guide me
I realize it's difficult
But now I can see
Oh, I hear them now
All the religious right
(Anger I See)
(Anger I See)
(Anger I See, Now)
The left isn't better
It's just more of the same
Condemning all these people
For what they believe
I climb to the top of that mountain again
No one is going to save me this way
And the closer to the top I get
The more they can gain
But I'm not you
I may not be perfect
But I've always been true
I may not be worthy in your eyes
Climb up from the bottom
For the last time
The last one the last one
The last time
If I was perfect
Then this would be easy
Either road's plausible
On both I could drown
I walk through the center
With no rules to guide me
I realize it's difficult
But now I can see, yeah
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It just hits. I know what I want now clearly myself... And the pieces. I realized. I compare the stories... I see the same. Why wasn't I there earlier. I can't... This mockery from goddess' is... Pretty damn annoying. Now that I see. They were but they were dethroned. Histories match. If I only would've been there earlier. But that just isn't possible for I didn't even know them before the days I've met them. I'm an ancient soul. I'm too slow. Or is it just really mockery from up above. Are they having a blast now that I saw it. Where the connection lies. Where the "almost" comes from. Or are you crying with me for you watched what they were not what they came to be? The hell should I know.
I never asked for a crown myself. I only asked for a sword and armor. I asked the right to question not decide. What is this, Faith? Fortuna? Destiny? Please. I'm tired... Even a pawn needs something back. Even jester needs a holiday...
Happiness... Seems like it never was close... Well there's someone for everyone right? When all the pieces from the shattered images form a whole new image... Kinda relieved... But also more sad. I never was close to anything. Well now that everything is clear... Chase the dream again. Aaaaah this hurts and heals at the same time..! I wasn't near my dream at all in my life.
Life... All I want to say to you dear life. **** **** *** ************ ******* ********* *** ****** ******* you...
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Queen... Wisdom... Sorceress... Control... Question... Hear...~