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Helvetin kolmas viisauden hammas ku osaa tehä ilkeetä. Ien kudos nii kireellä ku se puskee kolostaa et "koskee". Jos ois unipillereitä nukkuisin vaan koko tän väliajan ku se tulee. Eikä se oo itseasias viisauden hammas vaan jokerihammas, hymyillessä ei tunnu mitää.

Ja tulin siihen lopputulokseen pilkku että "Etsin Seuraa" status on luotaantyöntävä. Aloitten tekeminen, on luontaantyöntävää jostain syystä. "Sinkkua" kyllä käyää kyyläämäs mutta siihen se jääkin. *sigh*
Deittipalvelut... WE HAVE A PUMA..! Ehkä pitäs ottaa vain hyvän ystäväni sanoista vaari ja vain odottaa yksinkertaisesti. "Älä turhaan etsi kyllä se joku sieltä jostain tupsahtaa kun odotat rauhassa."

Nyt tosin ymmärrän miks vauvat alkaa rääkyy keskellä yötä ku hampaat tekee tuloaa. Tää "kipu" on hyvin... kiusallista...

Noin, nyt on erottu siitä koulutuksesta... Keväällä ehkä metallialaa kokeilemaan.
Jotenkin ei kuitekaa harmita...

Jos olotilaa voi sanoa jokseenkin onnelliseksi niin joo. Tai sitten se johtuu siitä, että 24 tunnin valvomisella ja yhden tunnin torkuilla olen "sulkenut" puolet aisteista ja tunteista. En tiedä. Tuntuu ihanan "kylmältä".



~ Everyday that passes I see the life that isn't suited for me. It's a cocktail of misery, depression, satisfaction. Theory that proves to be correct, but is still a disappointment. It seems my happiness is quite the opposite of what is considered when thinking "happy person" by the book of society. Only few individual cases accepted... Where's the hole for this octagon...~

Ostin sit kaks kassia lähinnä säilykkeitä, terveisin hetken mielijohde.
Aaah, ruokaa...
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Ja pitihä se tänki tulla kuviohi

"Your crime is... It is... Your very existence."

"Friendship? What is it? I wouldn't know... I think it's just for weak to be naive."

"Let me tell you something... People that misbehaves for other people's sake, are the ones I hate most!"

"It is very interesting. What could have twisted you so much? You don't even seem to realize it yourself. Say, where are you exactly? These clouded eyes of mine, can't see you at all."

"Humans.. are weak aren't they?"

"Father, if you don't need me. Then why am I here. Where do I belong exactly? Do I have to live alone?"

"You're one weird human, aren't you? You're hurt, and yet you're still laughing. You don't care about yourself. You may be here right now, but you don't really belong anywhere."

"She's like light to me. She always show's her feelings as they are."

"I'm scared that I'm not human. I'm scared that I'm different from other chains... I fear the things I don't know. I fear the things I already knew... and at every moment... I always... more than anyone... fear myself the most!"

"He is another destructive angel. He will bring yet another calamity on this land."

"You're the kind of person who brings ruin onto others. And an especially wicked one at that."

"The unsolved maze"

"I'm telling you, if you sacrifice yourself so easily, you'll never be able to protect anyone. Your sins are too great. You're hurting everybody."

"Maybe this is just some ridiculous fairy-tale someone made up. Everything is shrouded with mystery."
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We
Saw the power to change the future
In our dreams

In the midst of the noise, I heard your cry
It exposed my weakness as I was laughing

The road that you go on is only known to you
So chase after a different sky

We desire the courage to face toward the future
So we get lost in the past
Until I return to the true present
Where you laugh

Thinking that I want to learn about you, for the first time
I was daunted by the distance between our hearts that can't come together

We understood that we couldn't understand each other, so with just that
We're starting

I want to embrace your tears, pains and everything
But I feel that the more I run, the farther I become from you and I get worried
Where should I go..?

In the midst of the noise, I hear you singing
Now I can see my form that I'd lost

Please give me the power to change
The future that I would've gone through by myself
You laugh, and with just that
I can fly high

We desire the courage to connect hearts
So we get lost in love
Until I return to my true self
That laughs with you
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~Maybe it's a mistake to rewind to past. Maybe I wont find any answers there. Still, it is the only place I can look for them right now. The cry for the power to change the past. Sounds more like a scream in the wind. Still... Even if there was a chance. Who would know the outcome? Is it really what one would wish for? If you'd wake up from the past, would you remember why and what you were to change... The Abyss... Seems so homey...~



~ And I wonder what happens in realité, as the hand goes a full turn and has carved the full picture.~

Ei hele mitä muroja, näitten pitäs vissiin kaikkien esittää tähtiä mut osa on hyvinkin ihmismäisiä. Jotenkin... Järkkyy... Kulholline nanoihmisiä ja hukkuu maitoo. Turpoo. Ja hukkuu. Ja turpoo. Ja tulee syödyks.
Oi voi Kelloggs... You made my day.

Huomenna pitää käydä kaupassa. Toivottavasti en levitä enää mahapöpöä. Jos vaikka aivastaisin pari kertaa HeVi osastolla... No okei, takin sisää.

Tää kuu tuleekin olee mielenkiintone tulevan kannalta...
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~ I don't want to go back... But I can't move forward either... I can't stop, because my heart still beats and my lungs get filled with air. If any was threatened the beast takes the control. I want the clock to stop...
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Mirror mirror, on the wall
I'm just someone with no self control
You don't know the real me, but you get a glimpse so you paint a picture
So vivid, but just so wrong

This little girl is broken this time
I've seen things no one should ever have to see
I paint a smile on to tell the world I'm doing fine
While everything I've known flies out the window

(Chorus:)
I just want to leave this situation
I don't want to reach this destination
Can't you see I've lost the motivation
I want to leave this situation

Mirror mirror, on the wall
You see a girl with no self control
You ask what I want, it's complicated
The truth is, I don't know
I guess it's not enough to be there sometimes
But I've been dealt a hand no one should ever have to play
I guess I've really messed up this time
I'm too tired to fake the strength behind this lie

CHORUS

And now I sit here, all alone and bored
My head is filled with advice I once ignored:
That all you get from this moment, is all you gave to your past
And all you'll get from this moment, is what you gave to your past

I'm turning to the next thing
I laugh just for this moment
I'm crying on the bathroom floor
'Cause nothing is the same
Turning to the next one
Then we're laughing for the moment
I'm crying on the bathroom floor
I can not regain strength

CHORUS

And now I sit here, all alone and bored
My head is filled with advice I once ignored:
That all you get from this moment, is all you gave to your past
And all you'll get from this moment, is what you gave to your past
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~ Maybe I did lose the track of who I am... I've never felt truly MAN but since I'm a male I'm supposed to be... certain way... So I'm considered as a freak for just having long natural nails (especially good for self defense combat, but the situations are so rare...) and wearing heels sometimes because they feel awesome (Also quite combat handy)... And called freak for being in between of the extremes is... Odd...~
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Tämän taivaan alla
Kuun ja auringon
välissä olento on
käärmeen kasvot ja
rippeet enkelin

Sekö minusta
jäljellä enää on
missä olin ja
missä lentelin

Tuuli yltynyt hakkaa naruja lipputankojen
tuuli yltynyt käy yli puiden rankojen

Tämän taivaan alla tuuli puhaltaa
se hakee vertaistaan
ja pieni ihminen ristii kätensä
rukoillakseen
Mutta rukous on vain mutinaa tuulessa
ei sitä kukaan kuule ja
jos jostain joskus löytyy jumala
ei se lapsekseen, kuvakseen
minua tunnista

Unohduksen
sylistä nousee
raudanharmaalle
taivaalle

lintujen parvet
kun tuuli levittää
tomua
yllemme

Pelkään kuolemaa, ei kukaan kulje täällä vetten päällä
pelkään kuolemaa, ja pelkään elää täällä
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~ You don't make any sense when you say you want to be a hybrid... If you balance everything the outcome is worse than something that can be useful in 1 or 2 things. You'd be only decent for everything, but you won't surpass anyone. There's no space for such beings in this world. ~

Whee, vihreetä teetä ja lihapiirakkaa. Niin sairas yhistelmä et mahapöpöki lähtee kävelee. ><
Update 1826, 3.10
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Hyiii helvetti mikä aamu, sappinesteiden vaihtoa 40 minuutin välein aamu 0800 alkaen...

Ei, päässä ei vippaa. Ei vippaa yhtään ei. Jäätelöauto veti talon ohi ja repesin kuollakseni.

So I stumbled upon and found this Louis Depatis character hilarious







I just can't help it... I'm laughing my ass off because this part of the character's personality fits mine perfect... Only thing I'm missing, is the makeup.
Hair is srs bsns I tell you ><

^Canadian-Rainwater^
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I should peel my skin off to see who there really is
To be a ghost or the Alice in the Wonderland
I'm caught like a sword in a stone

I want to sell my soul
So I could fly with a carpet and a butterfly
On to flowers big as whales

What comes of a mind without a peace
Exceedingly growling valour
Come reborn light

I have a fear and a golden key into the underworld
Phenomenal and worthy of reminiscence
A wall that guards the pleasure that you seek, yeah!

The prime of the unknown
Of pantheons I gloat
A night-time dream without a sleep
My pale white unicorn
We dwell behind these shores
The life I once had is no more!

What! I can see, I can taste is deserted air
All the dungeons are closed and forever sealed
Nobody knows where our needs have disappeared

I want to have what I just saw
I need to be where I belong
I can't be a drifter of these two!

What comes of mind without a peace
Could I keep my desire?
And the diamonds left to shine
I will defy!

The prime of the unknown
Of pantheons I gloat
A night-time dream without a sleep
My pale white unicorn
We dwell behind these shores
The life I once had is no more!

I'm bound into my fate
My wrath still leads the way
Yet I cannot give in my hope
This view is not a hoax
Somehow I can't expose
That I'm inside of the shrine of all!

I Won't leave without a fight!
I cannot stand the oncoming fall
None of this will you devour!
I won't stay in your forlorn
Don't you dare to question my belief!
I shall bloom when I decide
No, I won't feign in this pseudo colony!

The prime of the unknown
Of pantheons I gloat
A night-time dream without a sleep
My pale white unicorn
We dwell behind these shores
The life I once had is no more!

I'm bound into my fate
My wrath still leads the way
Yet I cannot give in my hope
This view is not a hoax
Somehow I can't expose
That I'm inside of the shrine of all, yeah!
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~ The golden fusion is what should be achieved, yet only the two extremes are visible. I always say I want the fight. But... The heavy resistance to come, would it really be worth it..? I wouldn't want to force my way... "It's not about changing the world. It's about doing our best to leave the world the way it is. It's about respecting the will of others and believing in your own..."
~

Hehehehehe tää oli vaan helvetin hauska

Sitä paitsi. Ite kokkaan ainakin neljälle ja syön kolmen päivän aikana...
=,P

Digital communication
Information deformation
Media manipulation
Character assassination
Nationwide intoxication
Socio-manipulation
The wonders of civilization? A generation victim to emotional decapitation

Yes, it's worse than it may seem
Machines create our dreams
We pretend that we are blind to find some peace of mind

Deny
Shut your eyes, keep living the lie
Deny
Like there's no tomorrow
Deny
Shut your eyes so you won't realize...
Deny
... there might be no tomorrow after all

Visual contamination
Electronic penetration
Technological temptation
Sexual degeneration
Synthetic imagination
Artistic demystification
Mind sedated isolation
A generation victim to emotional disintegration

Yes, it's worse than it may seem
Machines create our dreams
We pretend that we are blind to find some peace of mind

Deny
Shut your eyes, keep living the lie
Deny
Like there's no tomorrow
Deny
Shut your eyes so you won't realize...
Deny
... there might be no tomorrow after all

Yes, it's worse than it may seem
Machines create our dreams
We pretend that we are blind to find some peace of mind

Deny
Shut your eyes, keep living the lie
Deny
Like there's no tomorrow
Deny
Shut your eyes so you won't realize...
Deny
... there might be no tomorrow after all
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Suffering from bitterness
Not feeling so right
Uncontrolled-mismanaged hate
No one is right
Differences unforeseen
Bound to lead
At failed attempts to do something constructively

Diffuse it
Destroy it
Abuse it and enjoy it

This horrible dream
A horrible nightmare

A wonderful dream
A wonderful nightmare

This toxic mind provoking all hostility
Frail on the outer side, anxiety
Afraid of what I'm capable of damaging
Manifestation of a mental disease

Diffuse it
Destroy it
Abuse it and enjoy it

This horrible dream
A horrible nightmare

A wonderful dream
A wonderful nightmare

I cannot control this

Why can't I do something?
Why can't I do anything?
Why can't I do something
To stop the hostility?
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~Everyday without a chain, without master, I get more and more certain. I don't belong in this world.
What happens to a loyal pet once its controller dies? It gets reckless and self destructive. Mind reaching toxicity stage it starts to kill itself.
A new worthy controller? I bet none exists.~