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No matter how I want to tear the memories apart
No matter how I slice and dice
No matter how I rip them to pieces
No matter how I want to burn them
No matter how I want to forget what it was

Why do I still remember so strong
Why do the memories still burst out of nowhere
Why do the memories haunt me from my heart
Why even the bits of ashes, their sparkle against the light remind me

I deny everything because it didn't work out
I deny everything because it wasn't forever
I deny everything because I chose to
I chose to forget
I chose to lock it up
I chose to never try again

I want it all to burn because the memories of what was then hurts more than to just wait for tomorrow
It is better to forget something if it was so important
Does this mean it was real afterall?
If it was real... Why didn't it last...

I was able to lock up my feelings once
All the memories in to one small box and lock it up somewhere
Why can't I do it now too
Because these were greater than anything before?
Because it atleast felt 99,99% real?
Tired... So tired... Of remembering... The lost love... A love that was supposedly true... But why didn't it last... Why do I think of it now when it has all been gone for half an year...

Goddesses... I hate how you work... I can imagine you laughing your asses off... It's not... funny...
since... it was all... for nothing...
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