IRC-Galleria

I say I wanna be healthy but I turn up the noise
And the IV drips a steady stream of poison
I think I'm just in love with the feeling
Break my bones so I can feel them healing

Crazy's I believe the medical term
When we wanna recover but we don't wanna learn
Keep breaking what's been fixed a thousand times
And give me some more of that iodine

I can't make reality connect, I push 'til I have nothing left
But if we want to wake up why we still singing these lullabies
I'll run in circles 'til I crash, one day these steps will be my last
So if we want to wake up why we still singing these lullabies

I say I wanna be happy but I quickly forget
When I sabotage all the good I've got left
Depression's like a big fur coat
It's made of dead things but it keeps me warm

I don't like pain but I bring it to life
I don't like scars but I'm good with a knife
I don't like tears but I'm starting to cry when I realize I'm destroying my life
I do this to myself, I do this to myself
Stop blaming someone else, we do this to ourselves
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~ I could say I'm a chimera. One moment I'm happy. Then first side steps in to destroy it all. Second side loves the grief. Third side starts over. Fourth stays in the dark observing. There's no other explanation why I find myself back at 0 all the time. Crying.~