IRC-Galleria

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you've said about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

[Chorus]
(One minute you're on top)
The next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)

So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you've crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the time
Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

[Chorus]
(One minute you're on top)
The next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(Now it’s all gone)

I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall

[Chorus]
(One minute you're on top)
The next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(Now it’s all gone)



Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
And the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do will distract me when

I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say
Put all the pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize, instead of setting it free
I took what I hated and made it part of me

It never goes away
It never goes away

And now you've become a part of me, you'll always be right here
You've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear
I can't seperate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me I've let myself become you

Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin'
I'd see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them

And I knew as they escaped away
I was commited myself to them
And every day I regret sayin' those things 'cause now I see
That I took what I hated and made it a part of me

It never goes away
It never goes away

And now you've become a part of me, you'll always be right here
You've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear
I can't seperate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me I've let myself become you

It never goes away
It never goes away
It never goes away
It never goes away

Get away from me, gimme my space back
You gotta just go
Everything comes down to memories of you
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know
I've let you go, so get away from me

Get away from me, gimme my space back
You gotta just go
Everything comes down to memories of you
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know
I've let you go, so get away from me

And now you've become a part of me, you'll always be right here
You've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear
I can't seperate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me I've let myself become you

I've let myself become you
I've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me I've let myself become you

I'm losing sight
don't count on me
I chase the sun
it chases me

you know my name
you know my face
you'd know my heart
if you knew my place
I'll walk straight down
as far as I can go

I follow you,
you follow me
I don't know why
you lie so clean
I'll break right through the irony

Enlighten me
reveal my fate
just cut these strings
that hold me safe

you know my head
you know my gaze
you'd know my heart
if you knew your place
I'll walk straight down
as far as I can go

I follow you
you follow me
I don't know why
you lie so clean
I'll break right through the irony

Cure
this
Wait
I
I hate this wait
I hate this wait

I follow you
you follow me
I don't know why
you lie so clean
I'll break right through the irony
I don't know why
I don't know why
I follow you
you follow me
I don't know why
you lie so clean
I'll break right through the irony

Ihankun musiikkimakuni "valmistais" mua tulevaa varten aina.



Can you take this broken boy?
And put the pieces back as one?
Though he has all of his toys...
He is never having fun

Because it's not enough
Now we're growing up
We are giving up
We are moving on
Because its not enough
We were growing up
We are giving up
And I won't hear what you say so...

Save your sympathy
Who do you think you're fooling?
Everything is dead!
Now you welcome me,
To a town called hypocrisy

Save your sympathy
Who do you think you're fooling?
Everything is dead!
Now you welcome me,
To a town called hypocrisy

(Town Called Hypocrisy)

Can you take this lonely girl?
I pick her up from off the ground
'cause theres no pride, to be found
When you follow sheep around
And no future here, no future
For us in this town

Because it's not enough
Now we're growing up
We are giving up
We are moving on
Because its not enough
We were growing up
We are giving up
And I won't hear what you say so...

Save your sympathy
Who do you think you're fooling?
Everything is dead!
Now you welcome me,
To a town called hypocrisy

Save your sympathy
Who do you think you're fooling?
Everything is dead!
Now you welcome me,
To a town called hypocrisy

La la la
Lalalalalalalala la la
Lalalalalalalala la la
Lalalalalalalala la la

(lalalalalalalala la la)
Because it's not enough
Now we're growing up
(lalalalalalalala la la)
We are giving up
We are moving on
(lalalalalalalala la la)
Because its not enough
We were growing up
(lalalalalalalala la la)
We are giving up
And I won't hear what you say so...

Save your sympathy
Who do you think you're fooling?
Everything is dead!
Now you welcome me,
To a town called hypocrisy

Save your sympathy
Who do you think you're fooling?
Everything is dead!
Now you welcome me,
To a town called hypocrisy

~En tiedäh... Tuntuu vain siltä ajoittain, jotkin asiat kun vain loksahtelee paikoilleen. Loksahtelispa vähän kaikki muukinh~

Löysin muuten yhden all time favorite peleistäni, ketuttaa kun menin antikvariaattii viemää aikoinaa... Löytyspä aito versio PS2:lle viel jostai, halvalla ja kunnossa oleva.



Minäkö? Väkivaltainen persoona? En suinkaan. Joskus vaan vähän olen turhankin tunnelmissa ja jopa kaipaan.

Tämä kuva kertoo kaiken suoraan



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Äiti ajatteli ihan extemporee että tässä eilen käytäisiin mummolla kylässä, ilmottamatta mitää. NNno.
Mummo oli kuitenkin tietoinen, koska hän oli töissä laittamassa kahvia ja teelusikka tippui lattialle. Ja tämä tarkoittaa pieniä vieraita.
Eli emme olleet yllätys ollenkaan. Mummoani pahemmin saa yllätettyä...
Kweh~

Kuudes aisti, ennalta näkeminen, whatever. Olen tosin jo varsin vakuuttunut tämän olemassa olosta ja kulkee ainakin äitin puolelta sukua mukana.

Huomasin tekeväni oudon rituaalin kun käynnistän tietokoneen. Painan käynnistys nappulaa > kävelen talon ympäri kerran > painelen salasanan > kävelen toisen kerran talon ympäri
Ei helvetti...

The chance of null. Have everything disappear.
If I was given the chance to forget everything and start from 0.
I would take that. It feels like I have done it.
Forgot everything from my past life.
Erased from the tale. And now I would be reliving it.
Remembering those pieces here and there.
Seeing those pieces in my dreams and I call it seeing the future.
What if I really did get that chance.
To forget everything.
Relive everything all the way from 0.
What if I really took it.
I'd take it now if I was given the chance.
All those happy moments without any suspicions, predictions.
Now all those haunt me.
I miss the past.
It was so easy.
What is gone.
Is gone.
There is no rewind.
If there was I'd do few things differently.
If there was a chance to change 3 things from your own lifestory.
I'd be happy to take it.
I'd be happy for an end too.
The end for all these futile efforts.
The end for all this that has led to nothing.
The end for all this nonsense that hasn't carried any fruit.
If I was given a cup of poison.
I'd take it.

Yet tomorrow shines bright and I see the face of what I'm now.
Why does it shine bright when it's just another fruitless day.
Yet tomorrow I'll be happy to see the daylight again.
Why am I happy if I think all so far has been for nothing.
My mind is free.
But chained.

~My own mind eats itself just to recreate the pieces it has eaten up. What can silence it when it is able talk to itself all the time.~



"In the maze without an end...
Drowning in our faults
In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?"

Erittäin ärsyttävä jumitus päivä... Jos sitä vaikka joku päivä tapahtus jotai JHÄNNÄÄ. Hyvä tuo "Kapteeni Koukku" leffa pitkästä aikaa.

"Smee! Tee jotain älykästä!"

"Anteeksi, nyt pitää kiivetä ränniä pitkin. Ai miksikö? Koska keijupöly loppui, muutenhan lentäisin!"

Kweh~ kylläpä on harvinaisen väsynyt olo... Jokaiselta aspektilta.
Nukkumaanh shiish...

Ja takaisin kuulokkeisiin. Oli kivah~
Yötä myöten musiikkia. Kyllä, nukun satunnaisesti musiikit päällä. Minusta se on rentouttavaa.

Eilen kavereilla viikonloppuloma intistä niin käytiin sitten yhden luona istumassa viettämässä iltaa. Mukavaa oli... Ilmapatjat. Käteviä, epämukavia nukkua. ><

Nämä päivät kruunaisi jos olisi tarjolla tulikuumaa vettä vielä suihkun verran tänä iltana. Ja löysin Dreamscene ominaisuuden Windowsista. Tää on hieno, hieno, hieno, hieno, hieno hieno, hieno.

Edit: 0:11
Tuli tulikuumaa vettä suihkussa. Ihnaah~

Jeee todellakin saan olla sunnuntaihi asti yksin kotona! Musiikkiaaaaaaaaah~ <3