IRC-Galleria

It was fascinating thus I've never felt like that before, I was half full of joy and hope yet half of me cried. I felt so lonely, so lovesick, so sad. And other half felt at ease, smiling, happy for my cat came to slap me in the face because it wanted attention.

Feeling those 2 sides at the same time. I felt enlightened. It sounds bad, but it was kinda 1st night I felt at ease in my heart.


I don't know whether this had anything to do with my dreams since I sometimes see glimpses of the future. Then when I live through those certain moments I feel like getting kicked to the head. This time I fell on the ground and felt I couldn't rise. It's like having signal lost on TV, all black and white fuzz. Usually these dreams are hectic when there's something important to happen. Worst thing is. Usually it's just that I have to wait... Rarely I see the decisive points. I wonder if I'll see my death like that when my time is about to end. Seems like not yet for a long time.